Maybe your confusing lust for love, I never mistenly thought I was in love when I was on. But, what is that I felt an intense lust for alot of girls. You still may have feelings for if your seeing her all the time, its hard to say. I think I was in lust with every girl I saw and I mean every; hot, skinny, fat, old and ugly. The first cycle I was I didnt have a girl freind, but had a few girls I was dating, I would bend over every girl I could, lol. My last cycle I had a gf who I love , but I still lusted after other women, even when I was having sex a few times a day and masterbating.