Im a bit different but the same. I know im big and I look good in the jym or at the bar, but sometimes, sometimes when im by myself I feel and think I look small. Im 5'10 217lbs, 19.6 inch arms, 10-11 % bf, 20years old, and im still growing. Only took 8 amps of sust one year ago. If I see a guy that is totally fat but big and strong I will feel almost jelious sometimes even though he looks like garbage compared to me. I guess everyone is like this.
Sometimes I think, "what if I did a few more cycles, how big would I be then?" But I just don't want to touch it again. I like feeling free and natural and not worry about anything. It just gives me too much anxiety. Maybe ill try it again in 3 years.