Do you ever think, Geez I should have done something better

[velvett]

I think I'm gonna end up doing something where I can work from home and have lots of free time.

See that's not what I mean.

In my business I help people but it's extremely superficial, I enjoy it, I am good at and it comes easy to me but it's not spiritually rewarding.

And for the karma that someone left me - don't get me wrong I am not my own worst enemy, I just ask myself if there was something more I could do in this life from a selfless standpoint.

I'll eventually figure it out.

I was just curious if anyone else feels this way time to time especially when inspired by a story.

 

[the_clockwork]

No, no matter what you do for a living you affect more people than you will ever imagine. Your job may not be as glorified as that movie portrays their jobs but I promise you it's not like that. I believe there is a guy here that use to be a rescue diver for the coast guard and from the sounds of it he did not enjoy it all that much.

 

[GoldenDelicious]

often.

i compare/contrast my current life/life direction to the supposed ideals foisted on me via all the social preprogramming we're subjected to in our formative years (societal preconception, religious preconception, familial preconception etc) and simultaneously try to work out not only how im doing compared to those preconceived notions, but also, how im doing based on my own personal frame of life reference

For a while I tried moulding my life around what I thought I should be doing, which was, from my own and my families point of view, nurturing mild mannerisms and the overall bearing of a pharmacist, to marry early and have a family

end result: dismal failure lol

(seriously, i was clinically depressed, had a shitty self image, shitty mindstate, and overall low appreciation of life)

so while I beat myself up about the concept of "am I doing the right thing" everyday, ive learned to cope by shifting to an experience based view of life - striving for quality experiences, rather than arbitrarily or societally defined measures of success (ie money, status etc), and the more I do so, the more I feel, for wont of a better term, "spiritual", and also, the more I find that base experiences are the most satisfying ie id rather scrunch sand between my toes as I orgasm into some blonde hottie or eat a really really good steak when im starving hungry than, say, drive a brand new car

I think that the turning point came for me when I was trying to get rid of a bunch of negative personality traits (I used to have White Knight syndrome, where I used to help people around me indiscriminately, which I think was rooted in a desire to indirectly improve my life by helping other people and basically hoping that there would be some reciprocation) and asked the most socially adept guy I know "Dude...once you get rid of these shitty traits...what do you replace them with?" and he replied "with whatever you want."

From there it was only a few steps until I answered that niggling question "are you doing the right thing with your life? what is the right thing?" with "the right thing is whatever I want. now fuck off and stop bugging me"

...and now my life has become a giant party, where im making more intense friends than ive ever made, having more sex than ive ever had and with some stunners too (woowoo lol ) and having a far more gratifying experience (especially socially/sexually) than ive ever had. Ive become a tree hugging hippie. Living like a yuppie. With a harem.

now if only I wasnt alwyas so fucking broke compared to before LOL

 

[PICK3]

I think we'll be judged on what we've done for others and as of right now I'll fail miserably

I always lend a hand when I see someone in need, but helping others isn't a planned component of my life.

 

[H_T_]

wtf, meaningful? go donate some $$$ and perhaps that'll make you feel better. things that reward with heart, soul & guts & glory doesn't pay for shit....unless you're a doc in the traumas....

 

[Tytan]

Every day! I feel as though I am not fulfilling my destiny, But at the same time I have a very comfortable life. Not taking any risks can be boring though.

 

[H_T_]

what's the motivation? to be, to do like everyone else? to care more than everyone else? to hurt more? but, i guess somewhere there is someone who has done something that no one else will do.....maybe....

 

[Sean Scott]

No, I get what you mean. I think having a purpose is at the center of self-actualization.

Very well said, activity without production really does not amount to anything. you can find purpose if yu focus on yourself then look to who is important in your life and focus on them. The rest should fill in. Use good judgement and you wil see the results. You ust take care of yourself. Im am going though a tough timeright now and am trying to use those thoughts to keep on the right track.

 

[yonkers weights]

The grass is not always greener but it makes you think....
Go with your gut and say fuck it!

 

[digimon7068]

everytime i start looking back and thinking "what if", i stop and look at what i have and i feel bad for even thinking that. . .yeah. . .i probably could have done something different and maybe more interesting career-wise. . .but, then i would never have met my wife. . .the almost 18 years now since our first date have been the absolute BEST ones of my life and it just continues to get better. . .i shudder to think where i would be right now if i hadn't met her. . .i have more than i ever expected and more than i deserve. . .sure. . .i'd like to go back and do some things different and set some things right. . .but only if i could still end up where i am right now. . .