You mean like this phagocyte:
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LOL. I love that guy! Java just missed the "and doggone it" beforee..."people like me".
I really had a good 15 year streak with taking a very Buddhist and Taoist approach to life and my subsistence level barely into middle class lifestyle was just fine for me and my partner for ages. I was haaaappy. Then came REAL life....
So, damnit! I'm having a midlife crisis and questioning all my past decisions and what the hell I do now about it all. I'm losing my bamboo limberness to swaying with life. In some ways I did snap.
I was the happy leaf floating on the river. Now I feel like algae pond scum and I know it's all my own fault and perspective. I was rarely jealous about what others had. I knew I had it good- good enough for me. Then I discovered the Buddha's devil...DESIRE. I love alliteration. ha ha.
Now, I have to decide NOW if it's all good enough for me still or do I get off my ass and go get what I want- besides another affair. That was a weird lithmus test to see if I could get what I want in that arena. It's true - be careful what you ask for as it's not likely to be exactly what you wanted though it's what you wanted. But, now I want all the rest that I do now dare to DESIRE.
So, there's a balance to be attained between being happy with what you have yet having enough drive to go get MORE.