Just like to add. That regardless of what she turned out to become during out last year. Regardless of all that's happened. I truly do miss her a lot! I think about her everyday. I miss her so much. I just don't miss the things she allowed to happen during our last year. This was my wife and bestest friend.
I have received many pms and karma messages from you guys telling me there is better out there. That I will find someone better. Well, I think I'm fucked in the head. I really do think I am.
So far I've been on 3 dates with 3 really gorgeous women. These 3 women put my wife to shame. Way HOTTER!!! No question about that! But boring and/or shallow personalities. The whole time on the date all I did was look at their face, but think about her. I even almost called all 3 of them by ex-wives first name! Lol
All 3 got attached to me real quick. Calling me and texting me at all times. And instead of being happy about it...I got scared instead. Scared that I was going to go through the same shit I went through with my EX with either one of them. And because of that, I had to change my number 3 fucking times!
I guess its hard to start dating another woman, when all I think about is my ex-wife. Know what I mean?
Its like being super hungry and craving a juicy cheeseburger. But instead you end up with fucking mcdonalds chicken nuggets. You'll eat the chicken nuggets...but such disgust and disappointment. Because all you had on your mind was that juicy burger.
I was told to get another woman in order to get her out of mind. But how can I do that when all I got on my mind IS her.
Guess I'm staying single for a long ass time. I'm too busy rebuilding my life anyways. Lol