Hey bro I feel for you but you need to man the fuck up! Yea it sucks bad but in life and in business its sink or swim.
Bro I got hit by a fucking car and almost died!!! Broke neck!!! I recovered 100% I was told I would never fully recover. Believe it or not I had a fucking skydiving accident(line over twist) lets say I kissed the ground and found a new way to rotate my hip again I was told I was fucked and again they were wrong. 6 years ago I was in a serious auto accident torn rotator 70% and L4 ruptured disk and reinjured my neck as a bonus.(I could hardly walk for 9 months!) They told me my bodybuilding and training was over and I needed back and shoulder surgery. I never had any surgery today I bench over 300 pounds and I squat to I teabag the floor with a bum L4 disk.
Why am I telling you this??? Because I KNOW we can overcome even the most serious injury and rise above.
You said "I just do not think I can do this again."
Let me leave you with this...
Think you CAN or think you CANT either way you are right.
You can bro.
BigGuyPHX
Read the 7th paragraph about the man in the arena(good stuff)
http://www.theodore-roosevelt.com/trsorbonnespeech.html