Physically I can't believe the strength increases. I'm shrugging 460 for sets and my bench is up to 425. sets of 1080 on the leg press. My weight is up to but plateuing at 250. My skin is looking thinner and I am thinking I'm about 11% BF. I will be seeing my nutritionalist in the next month or so to find out.
Mentally I'm only happy when I'm in the gym. It's the high point of my day. After I get back I am grumpy tired and stressed. The lack of sleep was really killing me the last month but I am finally catching up with it a bit which makes me a Bear when I wake up. Things stress me so much (even little things) that I feel like packing up my Harley and heading somewhere where I can just leave everbody and everything I know behind. I can feel that I want to lash out or somehow just go some where where noone can see or hear me and let out about an hoursworth of "Primal Scream" I am keeping it inside though and I dont know how healthy that is. I know this is all gear related because I have a great fucking life. I live "On the Beach" in a killer condo with my wife who I am still in honeymoon phase with. I co own an aerospace company and only have to work half of the year and pull a 6 digit figure every year. How can I have all this and still feel like I want to ditch it all and leave?! Fuckin "Tren" How can you love somthing so much and hate it at the same time?!
Guess this turned into sort of a ramble and a vent. Thanks to whoever reads this.