* Red² - T's Journey 2007 *

[The Shadow]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

So July 8th..... It has been the best day of the past little over 13 weeks.
Go figure I go to no carbs and everyone says "Errr" and I get happy.
I got a life lesson today which is what I think I was supposed to learn along my journey. What is that I'm sure you are wondering....
You know how time and time again people tell you things but your brain and where you are at in life; what they tell you makes sense but it just doesn't 'really' make sense..... and you don't get the full eyes wide open revelation. I've always heard the sayings people make the world go around, due unto others as you would want them to due unto you, It's not the goal but the journey to get you to the goal...
I'm sitting here foggy in the head trying to rub two brain cells together to try and make what I'm trying to say comprehensive to others'. I have learned that no matter what may seem like a surmountable amount of stress and disarray in my life it actually is not about me. It's not about me at all. It's about all of you and people like you. People who reach out and go the extra step without looking for anything in return, those who really want to help other people not only reach their dream's by being there for me and you... It could be a guy in my journal just reminding me that you are still watching, or a hallmark e-card in my mailbox, or a PM with How are you?, or a phonecall saying,"Where are you I miss you?" All of which have assisted me along my way. I always have been there for my friend's, and always will be there for them..... but I have never, ever, in my life met a group of people who have taken the extra time out of their schedule to help me.... ME, I am a bunch of words on a screen.... I am what I type, yet you gather the letters and my words and mix them up and project them back to me in a way that only seems fitting for the time I need to receive them. I realize I am not just what I type, I am not just the words on a computer screen, but I 'REALLY' am a part of you, as you have been a part of me. You find the missing pieces in my daily puzzled journals and help me link things together to create a whole picture of my life. The life that has now from this day changed in a very unique way. I have done unto to others' my whole life.. despite the fact of getting stabbed in the back, turned on, used, forgotten (so I think), but I never let that change me. I kept on not giving up on people understanding I could make a difference in as many people's lives as I could. I felt flustered, irritated, and angry as to why it always seemed like I kept giving but was never receiving. Again.... things I have been told but never fully understood. "Due unto others as you would want them to due unto you"
One I have always followed but never felt like I was getting the return. Now I feel what's it's like to reap the return. You want to know something????? The return is not all that great!!!! Here I thought I was missing out on something by not receiving anything. I like the gratification of helping others', or doing something special for my friend's, but to receive..... It feels very awkward and foriegn to me.
Next saturday yes I reach one of my life's goals. Many of you are coming to cheer me on, to give that support, and I feel very strange receiving it.
The other part is.... the selfishness that has overcome me in the past 13 weeks I HATE. I hate seeing in my log about how this happened, or that happened, and complaining. That's not me. I know many of you have said you understand.. it's the low-carbs... honestly my mind was weak. BUT..... one of my life lesson's came. Going back to the beginning... No matter how much anguish I may think I am under instead of projecting my selfishness tendencies outwardly, I will harness the energy and assist another in need. I spent the last hour instead of watching the clock on the treadmill hit 55 minutes.... thinking. Thinking about who I wanted to give something too. Then to many people came to mind. All of you! There is one though... My sister-n-law.. her birthday is in 2 weeks. I have been so self absorbed that I had thought, "Eh, I'll just buy her a card and get her something". I had not realized and pieced this little puzzle together until that moment... Her mother passed away May 12th of this year. This will be her first birthday without her mother. How lonely she will be.... She is the one person in my life who has supported me and is definitely blood to me.. I would die for her. I just watched the movie "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants". I can't really explain how this movie apply's but it does. I have decided tomorrow to purchase this film, and a pair of pants that I will sew inside the word's "I love you", and place a picture of her mother in the back pocket.
So back to my life lesson..... It was a big one today. I am not done doing unto others' and I will never be. I now know... I would rather do for someone else, then have anyone do anything for me it is a greater blessing. For all of you who are coming to my show, or even contributed to my journey, two small words can't say enough "Thank You". Just in case I did forget that I wanted all of you to know you have placed a huge smile on this low-carbed girls' face

STFU AND PULL SOME WEEDS

 

[jenscats5]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

x 265 for ya girlie!!

 

[*Bunny*]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

My $.02 in red ... other than my log I plan this to be all for me today ...

Go figure I go to no carbs and everyone says "Errr" and I get happy. I am in total agreement that this moment of clarity was bound to happen & IMO these low carbs per show have nothing to do with it (Treil you KNOW what I mean)
I got a life lesson today which is what I think I was supposed to learn along my journey...
..... People who reach out and go the extra step without looking for anything in return, those who really want to help other people not only reach their dream's by being there ... Treil YOU GET IT ,,,, er, you get a part of "me" that many do not .. never will ...


. I like the gratification of helping others', or doing something special for my friend's, but to receive..... It feels very awkward and foriegn to me. ... as she finds my calling in life

The two words that hardly breach the surface of human emotion & feeling .... Thank you ...

 

[alex2678]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

So July 8th..... It has been the best day of the past little over 13 weeks.
Go figure I go to no carbs and everyone says "Errr" and I get happy.
I got a life lesson today which is what I think I was supposed to learn along my journey. What is that I'm sure you are wondering....
You know how time and time again people tell you things but your brain and where you are at in life; what they tell you makes sense but it just doesn't 'really' make sense..... and you don't get the full eyes wide open revelation. I've always heard the sayings people make the world go around, due unto others as you would want them to due unto you, It's not the goal but the journey to get you to the goal...
I'm sitting here foggy in the head trying to rub two brain cells together to try and make what I'm trying to say comprehensive to others'. I have learned that no matter what may seem like a surmountable amount of stress and disarray in my life it actually is not about me. It's not about me at all. It's about all of you and people like you. People who reach out and go the extra step without looking for anything in return, those who really want to help other people not only reach their dream's by being there for me and you... It could be a guy in my journal just reminding me that you are still watching, or a hallmark e-card in my mailbox, or a PM with How are you?, or a phonecall saying,"Where are you I miss you?" All of which have assisted me along my way. I always have been there for my friend's, and always will be there for them..... but I have never, ever, in my life met a group of people who have taken the extra time out of their schedule to help me.... ME, I am a bunch of words on a screen.... I am what I type, yet you gather the letters and my words and mix them up and project them back to me in a way that only seems fitting for the time I need to receive them. I realize I am not just what I type, I am not just the words on a computer screen, but I 'REALLY' am a part of you, as you have been a part of me. You find the missing pieces in my daily puzzled journals and help me link things together to create a whole picture of my life. The life that has now from this day changed in a very unique way. I have done unto to others' my whole life.. despite the fact of getting stabbed in the back, turned on, used, forgotten (so I think), but I never let that change me. I kept on not giving up on people understanding I could make a difference in as many people's lives as I could. I felt flustered, irritated, and angry as to why it always seemed like I kept giving but was never receiving. Again.... things I have been told but never fully understood. "Due unto others as you would want them to due unto you"
One I have always followed but never felt like I was getting the return. Now I feel what's it's like to reap the return. You want to know something????? The return is not all that great!!!! Here I thought I was missing out on something by not receiving anything. I like the gratification of helping others', or doing something special for my friend's, but to receive..... It feels very awkward and foriegn to me.
Next saturday yes I reach one of my life's goals. Many of you are coming to cheer me on, to give that support, and I feel very strange receiving it.
The other part is.... the selfishness that has overcome me in the past 13 weeks I HATE. I hate seeing in my log about how this happened, or that happened, and complaining. That's not me. I know many of you have said you understand.. it's the low-carbs... honestly my mind was weak. BUT..... one of my life lesson's came. Going back to the beginning... No matter how much anguish I may think I am under instead of projecting my selfishness tendencies outwardly, I will harness the energy and assist another in need. I spent the last hour instead of watching the clock on the treadmill hit 55 minutes.... thinking. Thinking about who I wanted to give something too. Then to many people came to mind. All of you! There is one though... My sister-n-law.. her birthday is in 2 weeks. I have been so self absorbed that I had thought, "Eh, I'll just buy her a card and get her something". I had not realized and pieced this little puzzle together until that moment... Her mother passed away May 12th of this year. This will be her first birthday without her mother. How lonely she will be.... She is the one person in my life who has supported me and is definitely blood to me.. I would die for her. I just watched the movie "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants". I can't really explain how this movie apply's but it does. I have decided tomorrow to purchase this film, and a pair of pants that I will sew inside the word's "I love you", and place a picture of her mother in the back pocket.
So back to my life lesson..... It was a big one today. I am not done doing unto others' and I will never be. I now know... I would rather do for someone else, then have anyone do anything for me it is a greater blessing. For all of you who are coming to my show, or even contributed to my journey, two small words can't say enough "Thank You". Just in case I did forget that I wanted all of you to know you have placed a huge smile on this low-carbed girls' face

Hi Treil

Great post last night. You've done such an amazing job preparing for your show it will be worth all your time and energy in the end. And I agree receiving anything for me is very uncomfortable as well. The sense of satisfaction gained in pleasing others and bringing some joy or relief to their lives is a gift in itself. Enjoy the rest of your Sunday.

 

[Sassy69]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

Treil -- here's how you get to that part about 'helping others' -- you go down the random walk of figuring out wtf people are talking about w/ all the different types of training, the diet, why you do this or that, how you function on low carbs, the impact of all these stresses on your life, how you feel when you make it thru a particularly hard day and not only survive but feel pretty damn good, or maybe just the fact that you survived makes you look twice and go "Wow. I did it!".

And once you go thru that something clicks and it all comes together. And then its "yours" and then you can't help wanting to share that w/ other people because all of a sudden it all makes so much sense! The "fear of the unkown" is gone and you can now see how other people's same or similar stumbling thru this experiment we call "the fitness lifestyle" are going and you may actually have the answer or the same experience still fresh in your mind.

Its one of those truly amazing things where the "doing" helps you grow, and it never stops growing. There is no downside to it. You accomplish changes that you want, you learn from every step of it whether you achieve your goals on schedule or hit roadblocks along the way. People LOVE to see change that is targeted and specific - that means YOU did it. Its all yours and not just some random act of nature. It means you have control over your life & your happiness. That gives people hope for themselves and you can even offer a hand to hold along the way.

Its pretty cool.


Now STFU & WEED.

 

[jenscats5]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

I agree with what everyone else said and since I stink at words I'll leave it to them.....

Lots of love for ya girl!!

 

[*Bunny*]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

I agree with what everyone else said and since I stink at words I'll leave it to them.....

Lots of love for ya girl!!

hey all ya gotta say is ...if you dont like it ...

 

[*Bunny*]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

hey all ya gotta say is ...if you dont like it ...

^^^ *DOH!!!*

LOL This was for directed to Treil & her "Rant Here thread" Shadow started ... lol


I thought it was hilarious ...

 

[treilin]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

Treil -- here's how you get to that part about 'helping others' -- you go down the random walk of figuring out wtf people are talking about w/ all the different types of training, the diet, why you do this or that, how you function on low carbs, the impact of all these stresses on your life, how you feel when you make it thru a particularly hard day and not only survive but feel pretty damn good, or maybe just the fact that you survived makes you look twice and go "Wow. I did it!".

And once you go thru that something clicks and it all comes together. And then its "yours" and then you can't help wanting to share that w/ other people because all of a sudden it all makes so much sense! The "fear of the unkown" is gone and you can now see how other people's same or similar stumbling thru this experiment we call "the fitness lifestyle" are going and you may actually have the answer or the same experience still fresh in your mind.

Its one of those truly amazing things where the "doing" helps you grow, and it never stops growing. There is no downside to it. You accomplish changes that you want, you learn from every step of it whether you achieve your goals on schedule or hit roadblocks along the way. People LOVE to see change that is targeted and specific - that means YOU did it. Its all yours and not just some random act of nature. It means you have control over your life & your happiness. That gives people hope for themselves and you can even offer a hand to hold along the way.

Its pretty cool.


Now STFU & WEED.

That is exactly the way I feel!
Girl I already been weeding!!! Got dirt up under my nails, in my hair, on my knees (NO KNEE PADS S) and everything
Even went to the store like that 'cuz I had some serious birthday shopping to do. And I got every last piece that I wanted. Funny 'cuz I knew I would get it all and find what I needed and exactly where. A few people are going to be in shock
Actually a meal behind because I forgot to eat... And now I'm eating chicken, egg whites, and olive oil and I don't know why... but it tastes perfect.

 

[treilin]

Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log

^^^ *DOH!!!*

LOL This was for directed to Treil & her "Rant Here thread" Shadow started ... lol


I thought it was hilarious ...

How about that directed to the whine thread... I refuse to have a rant thread now... I will not rant...