My Heartfelt condolences go out to you and your family. Upon reading your e-mail my heart became so saddened by your loss. I will pray for the comfort of your family. I was on when my wife conceived and during her pregnancy also. Do not let yourself be ridden with guilt -- just with love for her and the time you have had together. Share the memory of her with those who knew and loved her. I may not know fully the depth of your grief but I understand loss, pain and suffering. If you need to talk, you got my number. why don't the stars fall from the sky, why do birds fly, why do we live, why do we die--We don't know the answers to everything . . . today. One day it will all be revealed to us when we can better understand and like everything else I am so sure it is for an absolute precision perfect purpose. Peace and comfort to you.