Hey all!

[DannoMight]

That seemed like years ago huh? Was it years ago? Shit, I don't even remember.

it was around summer of 05. he even took pics in those puma daisy dukes!!!!!!!!! llolololol

 

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it was around summer of 05. he even took pics in those puma daisy dukes!!!!!!!!! llolololol

LMFAO!!! He took one of himself in the nude!!! Everyone complained and he took it off. LOL!!

 

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Yeah Carth I remember you were quite the dikface, its cool that you can look back and see that, but under that I knew you were a decent dude. Remember when you dogged me for getting on the juice, said I was too fat and looked as if I had never worked out, yeah id say I was ready to shit in your wheel house but it motivated me, so thanks bro.
Anyway now my question for you, I know you were on consistently for a long time, how long did it take you to normalize, what protocol did you use ? How are you workouts now being that your natural? Im just picking your brain because ive been on for a while and really need to get off completely. Thanks bro.

Dude, just one day in the month of December last year I said..."Fuck this shit!". I noticed I was becoming more and more militant like to my wife. I wasn't smiling enough to other people. People were always trying to be nice to me and I was always trying to avoid their friendship. Road rage? Oh yeah! I mean, I never actually got out of the car to start shit. But I remember being in the car getting very red and angry and yelling out shit. Also, I remember blowing up at people here on EF. And over what?! Nothing!!!

Sad thing is, you just don't see these things until you sit back and think hard. Visualize things out in your head. Look at how other people smile to each other and crack up on jokes. How people made friends either in person or on Myspace. I thought to myself..."I want that". I want to smile, be happy, be nice and kind and make friends.

I got into bodybuilding because I wanted to attract girls. Right before I started to juice and get big. I ended up with a very hot chick who is now my wife of 12 years. What my wife said was true. She said that the only reason she got with me was because of my outgoing and down to earth personality.And I hate to brag but it's true. But I do recall always getting hot girls. And I got them not by being a player. But by being myself. Shit! Before I got big, I was a fucking nerd! I mean straight up NERRRRRD!!! Only weighing 118lbs with glasses. And I still managed to get hot girls.
And after what Chris Benoit did to his family and himself made me very happy I was off the juice finally!

I'm not only happy I came off. But i'm more happy that those I hurt or pissed off forgave me. Acted as if nothing ever happened. I am definitely getting a 2nd chance here and I don't want to mess this up. I'm not on gear now. But I do plan on getting back. But I learned my lesson. And that is not to stay on gear NON-STOP without any breaks. From now on, I'm only going to do short cycles. Or...if I do notice ANY and I mean ANY anger or frustration in me of any sort. That will be a sign letting me know to just come off the cycle NOW!

So, to answer your question bro. I just stopped in December of last year. Didn't do PCT - post cycle therapy - - post cycle therapy - because PCT never works for me. Hence the reason why I am on HRT Test for life. I do recall coming off in December and feeling so much better a month later. And as the weeks went on...I felt more at peace. My eyes began to open and I realized the stupid shits I said and done.

What did suck was losing that size, strength, raw power and energy! That confidence that I we all get from this stuff. But fuck it! I feel much better now. Like I said before and I will say it again. I rather look so-so and feel great, then look great and feel like shit. Shit to me and to others around me.

As far as working out. It kinda sucks a bit. But I try my best. I don't have that anger and aggression anymore to go to the gym and blast HEAVY weights as if they didn't weigh anything. Everything now actually has some weight to it! LOL What sucks is that now I go to the gym. And I'm the one looking up to the other big guys in there. Big guys....these big guys were guys I used to workout with! LOL Now I can't! They look at me like I'm a wimp. But you know what? As I workout and look at them. I see what I used to see in me. And that is them NOT being happy. I can see the misery in their face. No pleasure for life at all! While instead I'm the one now smiling and socializing. But of course, still training! LOL

There is this one HUGE RIPPED MOFO in there that is always happy and smiling. And he understands what most juicers go through. He told me it took him 13 years to finally admit that he was miserable to himself and others around him. Says he only uses drugs he knows won't make him miserable. And says he keeps the cycles either short. Or comes off whenever he "feel" something wrong. Same shit I want to do when I go back on gear. He also told me that he does take a lot of Tyrosine, B6 and Vitamin C to help boost his dopamine levels. Thus keeping him happy.

 

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Dude, just one day in the month of December last year I said..."Fuck this shit!". I noticed I was becoming more and more militant like to my wife. I wasn't smiling enough to other people. People were always trying to be nice to me and I was always trying to avoid their friendship. Road rage? Oh yeah! I mean, I never actually got out of the car to start shit. But I remember being in the car getting very red and angry and yelling out shit. Also, I remember blowing up at people here on EF. And over what?! Nothing!!!

Sad thing is, you just don't see these things until you sit back and think hard. Visualize things out in your head. Look at how other people smile to each other and crack up on jokes. How people made friends either in person or on Myspace. I thought to myself..."I want that". I want to smile, be happy, be nice and kind and make friends.

I got into bodybuilding because I wanted to attract girls. Right before I started to juice and get big. I ended up with a very hot chick who is now my wife of 12 years. What my wife said was true. She said that the only reason she got with me was because of my outgoing and down to earth personality.And I hate to brag but it's true. But I do recall always getting hot girls. And I got them not by being a player. But by being myself. Shit! Before I got big, I was a fucking nerd! I mean straight up NERRRRRD!!! Only weighing 118lbs with glasses. And I still managed to get hot girls.
And after what Chris Benoit did to his family and himself made me very happy I was off the juice finally!

I'm not only happy I came off. But i'm more happy that those I hurt or pissed off forgave me. Acted as if nothing ever happened. I am definitely getting a 2nd chance here and I don't want to mess this up. I'm not on gear now. But I do plan on getting back. But I learned my lesson. And that is not to stay on gear NON-STOP without any breaks. From now on, I'm only going to do short cycles. Or...if I do notice ANY and I mean ANY anger or frustration in me of any sort. That will be a sign letting me know to just come off the cycle NOW!

So, to answer your question bro. I just stopped in December of last year. Didn't do PCT - post cycle therapy - - post cycle therapy - - post cycle therapy - because PCT never works for me. Hence the reason why I am on HRT Test for life. I do recall coming off in December and feeling so much better a month later. And as the weeks went on...I felt more at peace. My eyes began to open and I realized the stupid shits I said and done.

What did suck was losing that size, strength, raw power and energy! That confidence that I we all get from this stuff. But fuck it! I feel much better now. Like I said before and I will say it again. I rather look so-so and feel great, then look great and feel like shit. Shit to me and to others around me.

As far as working out. It kinda sucks a bit. But I try my best. I don't have that anger and aggression anymore to go to the gym and blast HEAVY weights as if they didn't weigh anything. Everything now actually has some weight to it! LOL What sucks is that now I go to the gym. And I'm the one looking up to the other big guys in there. Big guys....these big guys were guys I used to workout with! LOL Now I can't! They look at me like I'm a wimp. But you know what? As I workout and look at them. I see what I used to see in me. And that is them NOT being happy. I can see the misery in their face. No pleasure for life at all! While instead I'm the one now smiling and socializing. But of course, still training! LOL

There is this one HUGE RIPPED MOFO in there that is always happy and smiling. And he understands what most juicers go through. He told me it took him 13 years to finally admit that he was miserable to himself and others around him. Says he only uses drugs he knows won't make him miserable. And says he keeps the cycles either short. Or comes off whenever he "feel" something wrong. Same shit I want to do when I go back on gear. He also told me that he does take a lot of Tyrosine, B6 and Vitamin C to help boost his dopamine levels. Thus keeping him happy.

Nice reply bro, its amazing how much your outlook has changed, I commend you for that. Ok couple more quest, did your balls bulk back up, and what dosage of TRT are you running? Thanks bro.

 

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Balls only go up with HCG. Without that, they just stay small. But don't keep shrinking neither to the point that they disappear. Currently on 100mgs of Test Cyp per week.