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Day two of sobriety
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mrplunkey
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Yeah, the poon that sticks-out about 6 inches, throbs and has veins in it.
You know... *that* kind of poon.
Im with you.. I just got clean from Alcohol and I was fine the 2 days however I had to hire an RN to stay with me from Thursday until Monday. no joke.. She had to feed me and give me medicine because I was so damn sick I did not want my family or anyone else for that matter to know and I knew I would not be able to take care of myself. She had to give me injections of Fenergin and then administer Ativan via a shot..I was so damn sick I could not function.. It was expensive as hell for a RN for 40 hours however I have my life back..
Delinquent
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I guess I should give a little background. We started partying off of them last year but the addiction didn't start until xmas. I originally start using them because the pain on my knees, back, etc were taking a serious tole on me because I was transporting patients for radiology while in school. I lifted patient and pushed them on stretchers. It seems like easy work but when you're picking up 250lbs+ person from their bed to the stretcher or wheelchair is hard fucking work. Plus I was working two 16 hour shifs plus school during the week which was usully clinicals which equaled a lot fo work and stress and over all hatred of our new boss, I would take them during work becasue it was much funner while doing so. soon that became everyday then we start partying off of them. I completely regret getting in to this but I MUST be strong and get out of this.
I am waiting for a call for center for drug free living on a 3 days out patient center which would be great if I am accepted
I am waiting for a call for center for drug free living on a 3 days out patient center which would be great if I am accepted
OneBreath
Elite Mentor
Yeah, get in some kind of program ASAP. Addiction is an obsession of the mind and allergy of the body. That's a one/two punch that you CANNOT handle without outside help. The mind will trick you in many clever ways.
Doing it together with the person you live with would be like double the mental trouble. That's two addictions working against you and her.
I could barely handle my own sick much less another's. Be very careful. Either one of you can take you both down. It happens all the time.
Keep updating this thread. That will help as well.
Doing it together with the person you live with would be like double the mental trouble. That's two addictions working against you and her.
I could barely handle my own sick much less another's. Be very careful. Either one of you can take you both down. It happens all the time.
Keep updating this thread. That will help as well.
Delinquent
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The problem is that with us having to move, we our broker tank broke. I'm talking 100's in the negative right now.
I keep leaving a message with a clinic that I talked to about an outpatient program but she said I had to be off of xanax before they could start. From that day until now, I haven't taken any which is 1.5 weeks. I had to go at least 3 days without withdrawals and I was fine because I knew I wasn't addicted to them. She said I sounded like an excellent candidate for some gov't funded outpatient program where they put you on suboxone and monitor you. This will be my ONLY option as I Have to be ready for my new job. I'm just hoping the schedule that they require is something I can do though. If I have to come in everyday, it would probably be 5pm before I could make it because of work next week.
The other shitty thing is that I just called their general number and it said that they only accept evals on Thursdays so if that woman would have called me yesterday, I may have been able to get in today.
Very frustrating. Hurting but not serious yet ie: diarrhea, vomiting and all that nasty stuff.
Only extreme vertigo feelings, restless leg syndrome, sneezing constantly. Anxiety is the worst and it almost feels like I'm 10 again with growing pains but over my entire body. I'm gonna see if heating pad works for the aching as they feel exactly like growing pains.
We have 11 1/4 pieces of suboxone which would be 2mg equivalent. I'm hoping that we are transitioning from such a low dose of methadone (most stop methadone at a minimum of 30mg, a lower dose of suboxone will help. Some people have to take 24mg of it a day but these are recovering heroin addicts or painkiller addicts that have been using excessive amounts for years instead of months like us
I just wish I would wake up one day and not hurt. I don't care about feeling good right now as I would settle with not hurting.
Delinquent
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We MUST do this together. We got ourselves in to this mess so we have to get out of it. Especially for our daughter. Honestly though, We weren't completely blitx beyond the point of taking care of her while we were using. In actuality, we all had more fun because we were in such a happy mood. That's the problem with it being so psychologically addictive. Ever before I was addicted, they made everything better. I took them recreationally without feeling any ill effects the next day. I could wake up, feel absolutely normal then pop some pills later in the day as a pick me up. If we were out, no big deal. We would just wait for some more and not stress out about.
Once the daily use started, I remember waking up feeling like shit. Anxiety was through the roof, I was sweating yet cold. So I took some pills and felt fine within 15 minutes (roxy's are instant release so they hit fast and hard). This was a few days before Christmas. I kept telling my wife that we needed to get off of these but we never did. I ended up having a job lined up right after school but failed a drug test because of the methadone. I drank the normal stuff I use to pass and all the weed and oxycodone was gone but methadone I guess can stay in your system for months which I had to clue. So I lose the first job out of school.
Yet that still didn't deter us. We went another 3-4 months before finally saying enough is enough. The Dr we used got busted, the friendship between the person who introduced us to the Dr and a friend of 8 years was destroyed because of long standing issues.
We had to taper down with what little we had. We would find more methadone here and there but that dried up and here we are. Trying to break free of this fucking enslavement. People who have never been addicted to anything have absolutely no clue how it feels to be trapped like this.
Our unpacking of our new house as pretty much stopped because we have no energy at all. The only thing that seems to help a little is getting out of the house and just going anywhere. The pain isn't as bad in a public place for some reason. If I could only get this mindset at home, I would be ok but I can't seem to convince myself that Being in a public place and at home are the same thing.
But I'm starting to think that same way as you. I told my wife that I think we're increasing each others pain because we see each other hurting which makes us hurt worse. Plus talking about it makes my wife go insane. I try stressing that this isn't a game, we have no more options, we HAVE to do this and she says this makes her pain worse so I can't even do a pep talk of sorts to help hold her together.
I was expecting to feel much worse than I do though so I guess that's one good thing about this shitty situation
needtogetaas
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I know the feeling bro.. Hold on.
digimon7068
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do you have family around to help out with the kid???
