You know, dude, its my opinion, that I don't know you, so how could give you any rationality towards your situation. No one here can. We know you through this site bud. And we all take things with a grain or two of seasoning salt. Do some soul searching man. This is a decision you have to make, and live with. We don't man, all we can do is support you in what you choose. Good luck man.... I am sorta in a simular situation.