Yeah man, shit will get better. I went through a very similar thing in high school. I worked with this really cool chick at a supper club. We hit it off immediately and became really close friends. We shared everything with eachother and we both really cared about one another. Finally, we decided that maybe we should try going to the next level. We dated for a while and fooled around a little but then she kind of decided that it was too weird. We were getting too close for our age and she wasn't ready for that yet. She said she wanted to remain friends and I told her I would, but in reality, I was torn to pieces. I had to see her all the time at work and she still kept confiding in me about everything and we still hung out all the time, but I knew I couldn't ever hold her or kiss her again. It was too much. I broke down numerous times and told her how I felt but all it did was make us both miserable. It took time, but finally i decided to cut all ties and I started to feel a lot better. We still talked every once in a while, and we both moved on. I got married and she got engaged down the road. I still wonder what could have been, but I know that it was a great life experience for us both and we are both better people now because of it. So just hang in there man, if it is meant to be, it will be, but there is nothing you can do now about it.