Lost it all. Be carefull people.

[landser]

I know this isn't necessarily the place to be talking about addiction, but this place, and other Bodybuilding boards were my life. I felt comfortable here, and so I post this in hopes that somebody out there can learn from my hell, or maybe somebody out there can relate.

I was obsessed with bodybuilding/nutrition/anabolics, and was a strong and lean 230lbs. I fell into a drug addiction, which reaked havoc on my body and life. It broke me down so fast, even now that I am clean, I am dumbfounded by how quickly my addiction to drugs destroyed everything I was and worked for.

I lost 40lbs, lost my job, became homeless and now I also carry Hep C. I was one of those guys who thought he had the iron will...training hard and heavy, eating clean, and basically thinking he was invincible. I looked down upon junkies as if they were garbage, and never understood how they could be that way. I became one of them....

Im now working hard at being clean, but I wanted to say to all those guys out there who think that can never happen to them to be carefull. Drugs are powerfull, and they can suck you in before you know it. Sorry for the vent...

 

[Sub-Zero]

ill be sure not to have sex or share needles with you

 

[BrothaBill]

I know this isn't necessarily the place to be talking about addiction, but this place, and other Bodybuilding boards were my life. I felt comfortable here, and so I post this in hopes that somebody out there can learn from my hell, or maybe somebody out there can relate.

I was obsessed with bodybuilding/nutrition/anabolics, and was a strong and lean 230lbs. I fell into a drug addiction, which reaked havoc on my body and life. It broke me down so fast, even now that I am clean, I am dumbfounded by how quickly my addiction to drugs destroyed everything I was and worked for.

I lost 40lbs, lost my job, became homeless and now I also carry Hep C. I was one of those guys who thought he had the iron will...training hard and heavy, eating clean, and basically thinking he was invincible. I looked down upon junkies as if they were garbage, and never understood how they could be that way. I became one of them....

Im now working hard at being clean, but I wanted to say to all those guys out there who think that can never happen to them to be carefull. Drugs are powerfull, and they can suck you in before you know it. Sorry for the vent...

Take care man.
Hep. C is bad news, very few IV drug users here I would suspect though

 

[AAP]

What was you using bro?

 

[landser]

What was you using bro?

Bro, I dont want to violate the rules of the board in talking about rec drugs. But I will tell you, just hope I dont cross a line. I started out having a line or two with friends, or at a club, and it progressed to everyday use, and being comfortable with needles being a steroid user, lead to daily IV use, and later IV use of another more "physically" addicting drug. I had two addictions. I was a stand up guy...law abiding, hard working, good morales and was focused very much on my health. Addiction broke me down into a criminal/junky. I can't believe I let this happen, of all people, I was THE fitness guy. It can happen to anyone, so thats why I post, to let y'all know that if you have an addictive personality to be carefull. I now also have warrants out for my arrest, and alot of mending to do in regaining peoples trust and respect.

 

[scout69]

Hey brother I feel you and the best of luck o you faith in god is what gets me through

 

[Lestat]

wow man. You can talk about what you were addicted to, just not about aquiring or prices, etc.

Your story is scary, mainly because you sound like me. I've got a good job, fit, moral, law abiding.. but I do dabble with some rec drugs at times, I've done coke.. but never really got an urge to do it again after one long weekend. Alcohol and weed are the only things I use, and not too frequently.. alcohol 2-3 times a month, weed a little more often.

I have never had a real addiction (this site is the closest thing actually) and its hard for me to even understand it.. especially when I see what it costs people.

How did you turn into a crimilar, was it just the possesion, or did you actually start committing crimes?

How did you finally get clean?

How would you advise people to avoid what happened to you, stay away altogether, or is it possible to be a casual user of either of those drugs?

 

[DZLS]

i'm sorry to hear that drugs ruined your life... well, you actually did it, but at least you are on the road to recovery now...

i am the same whay you were... i can't see how a junkie lives the way he does, it sickens me to no end... i have too much to live for to fuck it up for a "high"...

good luck on getting your life back in order...

 

[landser]

, or did you actually start committing crimes?

How did you finally get clean?

How would you advise people to avoid what happened to you, stay away altogether, or is it possible to be a casual user of either of those drugs?

When I became homeless, I began selling drugs/robbing people, your regular low life criminal shit. How did I finally get clean? I had been up for 3 or 4 days, hadn't eaten, and not even drugs could mask the pain and misery I felt. They no longer could even do their job; covering up all my emmotional hell. I blacked out on the street, and as I lay there, nobody stopped. I was just some piece of shit looking junky...not even worth anybody's time. I hit bottom.

 

[BrothaBill]

How would you advise people to avoid what happened to you, stay away altogether, or is it possible to be a casual user of either of those drugs?

I dont think their is any advice that can help people in doing drugs that can cause addiction.
It really is a combination of environmental factors as well as how people interpret events and how they have learned to deal with them. Given the circumstances, any person can become an addict. It is simple behaviorism mixed with cognitivism