Lost it all. Be carefull people.

[hamstershaver]

When I became homeless, I began selling drugs/robbing people, your regular low life criminal shit. How did I finally get clean? I had been up for 3 or 4 days, hadn't eaten, and not even drugs could mask the pain and misery I felt. They no longer could even do their job; covering up all my emmotional hell. I blacked out on the street, and as I lay there, nobody stopped. I was just some piece of shit looking junky...not even worth anybody's time. I hit bottom.

damn man just remember that if you ever have the urge again

 

[Lestat]

I dont think their is any advice that can help people in doing drugs that can cause addiction.
It really is a combination of environmental factors as well as how people interpret events and how they have learned to deal with them. Given the circumstances, any person can become an addict. It is simple behaviorism mixed with cognitivism

how do we avoid it though???? what environmental and cognitive factors are common to all addicts.. that would be a way to avoid or at LEAST recognize addiction early on.

 

[Gymgurl]

Good luck in your recovery!

 

[landser]

how do we avoid it though???? what environmental and cognitive factors are common to all addicts.. that would be a way to avoid or at LEAST recognize addiction early on.

Look at your family history...is alcoholism/drug/food addiction present? That can help you determine if you may carry a genetic risk. Also, did you grow up in a home with alcoholic/drug addicted parents? If you did, one of the things you learn from them is that substances are a way to escape. I have both of these...a family history of alcoholism and alcoholic (now sober) parents. Also, if you find yourself easily obsessed with things, even training, you may have that addictive personality which is icing on the cake for future problems.

 

[Lestat]

Look at your family history...is alcoholism/drug/food addiction present? That can help you determine if you may carry a genetic risk. Also, did you grow up in a home with alcoholic/drug addicted parents? If you did, one of the things you learn from them is that substances are a way to escape. I have both of these...a family history of alcoholism and alcoholic (now sober) parents. Also, if you find yourself easily obsessed with things, even training, you may have that addictive personality which is icing on the cake for future problems.

Hmm ok.. no family history for me.. not even with grandparents or aunts/cousins.

Not overly obsessive, a little, but i keep it in total check.

How are things going for you now? Good I hope.

 

[silverbackn]

My heart goes out to you bro. I have a cousin that is about to do 10-20 years because of selling meth to cops numerous times. What happened to you more than likely saved your life. I'm glad to hear that you are on the right path again. I used to look down on anyone who used recreational drugs. I have personally never even smoked weed. To be honest, I am scared to death of hardcore drugs. I do have an addictive personality though, I try to avoid anything that I think I might like if I know I can't continue to do it.

 

[gonelifting]

Good luck man. You're on the right track with accepting it and realizing you have/had a problem. Don't ever go back. Tattoo that shit on your forehead.

I remember you from the boards a while back. You can come back to where you were. Being a bodybuilder, you should know that it takes time AND patience, bit it CAN be done.


and turn yourself in. They might help you clean up.

 

[feisty11975]

I know many people that are in the state that you were in..It is horrible to see! I thank God everyday that I did not become addicted! I did several things not all that long ago...and some I really liked. But I was able to never touch them again.

Good luck to you! My prayers are with you. Stay clean

 

[*MissFit*]

good luck and thansk for sharing your story.. hopefully someone might learn

 

[javaguru]

I know this isn't necessarily the place to be talking about addiction, but this place, and other Bodybuilding boards were my life. I felt comfortable here, and so I post this in hopes that somebody out there can learn from my hell, or maybe somebody out there can relate.

I was obsessed with bodybuilding/nutrition/anabolics, and was a strong and lean 230lbs. I fell into a drug addiction, which reaked havoc on my body and life. It broke me down so fast, even now that I am clean, I am dumbfounded by how quickly my addiction to drugs destroyed everything I was and worked for.

I lost 40lbs, lost my job, became homeless and now I also carry Hep C. I was one of those guys who thought he had the iron will...training hard and heavy, eating clean, and basically thinking he was invincible. I looked down upon junkies as if they were garbage, and never understood how they could be that way. I became one of them....

Im now working hard at being clean, but I wanted to say to all those guys out there who think that can never happen to them to be carefull. Drugs are powerfull, and they can suck you in before you know it. Sorry for the vent...

I don't mean to pry but AAS addiction is actually quite rare. Can I ask what you were addicted too?