Dude, I don't really know you, but I was where you were 6 years ago. Hit me out of now where. I was 26 married in great shape (6'6" at 275 lbs) and it knock me on my ass. I also had the surgery and followed that with 3 courses of chemo. That will humble anyone. I was lucky enough to get to go to MD Anderson in Houston, TX. I have been through the whole thing and the only thing I can offer is my prayers and my ear. YOU WILL bounce back, this I promise you. I choose to look at it this way, 'at this point in my life, I've beat what many couldn't. There isnt't anything that I can't handle/beat/or deal with.' Trust me, it puts things into perspective. You didn't indicate that you did any chemo, but if you did, you will see when you recover, your body will be different. I wish you luck and if you have ANY questions, please PM me.