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I grew up in a very violent household. I saw my stepdad beat my mom so badly that he broke bones, kicked her in the stomach when she was pregnant, causing a miscarriage, etc.
I really honestly thought that it would never happen to me because I thought I would never fall for that type of guy. I generally like more nerdy, smart, professional types. I really sort of jumped in this headlong without getting to know him well enough first.
It sort of started out like a fairytale and slipped slowly backwards, and by then I was too ashamed to admit to my friends and family that I had made a mistake. I am proud to a fault.
I still don't want to tell my family that I screwed up.