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Sorry 'bout your luck. Hope today turns out better.
About the books. Years ago, I was in
"Amway". One thing I got out of that was positivity. People are like computers, in that, we program our minds & attitudes by what we read, listen to, watch on TV, & who we hang around with. "Blow Away the Black Clouds" by Florence Littauer, The Dale Carnegie (attitude) books, Zig Ziglar's books (sales & attitude), and Norman Vincent Peale (attitude) all made a huge difference in my life.
To be honest, I haven't gone through anything near what you have in life, but I've found those books to be energizing & empowering.