I totally understand.
At the age of 45 I've decided I'm big enough. Not because I've reached the look of superhero massiveness that I invisioned for myself, but because I've become so uncomfortable at this weight that I'm no longer willing to suffer additionally for more size. I think trenbolone sides has as much to do with this discomfort as the actual size, but without the Tren I'd never be 317 (6'6")with visible abs IMO. Pic from last Sunday -
It's not like I have a future as a Mr. O competitior, or any chance of making a living as a profesional powerlifter. I do it for the love of the sports, and I get some ego satisfaction from freakin' the shit out of people with my size - lol.
After I've backed off 20 pounds perhaps my hunger will return?