why I believe in GOD
I woke up one morning quite normally did not party the night before or anything......
I was sitting at the coffee table, and drinking.
I picked up a photo album and proceeded to look through the pictures of my family.
I then proceeded to weap....i started feeling very emotional and feeling of guilt and the impression of selfishness proceeded to invade the deepist recesses of my mind.....I began to weap more......
and then I realized that I was unhappy, and the root of my unhappiness was in my selfishness....then I glanced back at the photos in the album and i realized a paradox.....
I was most happy when I was with people I loved.....and I asked my self why was i happy with these people....and the answer is cuase I made them happy , by doing things for them, and caring for them, and they inturn did the same for me....
..so I realized the more each of us gave the more their was for everyone to recieve....and I cried because as I became older I began to take more than I gave, I was decieved by myself, and I feel by todays society, that taking is the root to happiness, wether through consumer products of by using people.........and the more I took the less happy I was...till i reached the point I am discussing with you...
I was spiritually and morally banrupt, I hand been duped in to a viciuos game that not omly harmed my self, and my family, but also the family of humanity as a whole....
at that moment I then felt an undeniable presence over my head and body, I began uncontrollable crying, and felt over come with a with feelings of grief, misspent youth, love, fear...everything.....
and this presence wich I thought was only a fleeting feeling of magnified emotion, went into the recesses of my mind and told me to start giving, instead of taking....
I then said..."but if I do no one will care".....and the presence answered "it does not matter, the point is that you gave, and if you give someone out there will be better cause of it."
I tried several times to push this force a way whatever it was..but it stayed and persisted, I felt love, I felt pain, grief, and joy all in one.
and this experirnce ehatever it was( I say GOD) help me realize that giving is the true answer to happiness not taking...... this presence also told me that we are not perfect and that the road that I now chose would be difficult, and that I may never see the fruits of the seeds I sow,and may indeed never directly benifit from my action, and the truth is it does not matter,and its not the point of giving.........
the idea me benifitting from positive actions would just be another form of taking...the point is to give truly with your heart for the sake of giving, for givings sake. Because there is a little bit of creation or GOD in all of us or whatever you want to call it ..I can say for certain that GOD Exists
and that we all need each other