Im glad I am a member of my home board. Just strolling though and I read this. Sitting here shaking my head. THis dude's got serious mental issues and this is only his second cycle?
Dude, listen to this and listen good. Steroids don't make the man, the man makes the man. Think about this. Look at all the people that get into accidents and the docs say they will never walk again. These miraculous people have the self discipline to make their bodies do what they demand of it. Point is, when one pushes themself pasts a certain point, you will get a reaction. You say you can feel normal now. I do feel what you are saying. I think the fact that people know they are on AAS puts something in the heads and makes them push harder with lifting.
The mind is a very strong part of the overall body. Steroids don't help you get the girl, going after her cause you want her helps you get her. Don't be shy. It will get you no where in life. Go for what you want in life. People will see this and have a certain respect for you thereafter believe it or not.
Oh yeah, don't give a fuck what people think. If you want to do something that will improve your life, do it. Just be smart about all things!
Good luck Bro
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