Mike 83:
I don't mean to sound harsh but you need to snap to and look around. You are seriously out of perspective here Brother. There are people with physical issues that can't walk/talk/see, use their arms, eat without help, etc who would kill to be in your shoes. The fact that you have some gyno needs to be eval'd to see if it is due to a wt issue or hormonal, like prev said. After that, attack the cause with meds or the gym/diet and get to it. I sense a feeling of helplessness and hopeless here. If you don't become proactive in your approach to this you are in sad shape. Merely wallowing solves nothing. You have some ideas given here here yet I see no reply from you. The world sadly doesn't stop to hold your hand when you hit a bump in the road. You either get up and help yourself or sink farther down. Seek help via a professional, and start moving to correct this. Also you need to put perspective in your scenario, being a virgin at your age isn't the end of the world, nor an uncurable dz. With the self confidence you show no girl will come near you, for body language goes a long way. Suicide is a coward's way out, and only hurts those around you. Running away is merely changing the faces around you, but you don't change. Step up, stop looking for pity or a hole to crawl into. Look into fixing what is wrong with you, and the that is the ONLY way to start to improve your situation. Remember you have a pair, start using them and get to work.
I don't mean to be hard, but life is hard + you need to a kick in the pants here Brother.
Hope I helped.