My father just passed away.. Inkman69

[Inkman69]

Hey everyone just needed someone to talk to right now. I just lost my father last week. My father was the strongest man I ever knew. He was not afraid of anything except for my Mother. He fought in WW2 and the Korean War and won several medels includeing a bronze star and a purple heart He was always there to help when you needed it. I watched him die slowly over the last few months and I knew he could not stand feeling so helpless cause he was such a proud and strong man.My Mother died of lung cancer in April I too had to watch her waste away to nothing before my very eyes.

I just got married on the 24th and I have been off cycle now for about a month. I really feel like I am losing it right now. I can't deal with the depression anymore should I go back on cycle to help me though this. I don't want it to effect my marriage to my new wife due to the depression I am in. I don't feel like myself anymore. I have not trained or eaten right for weeks now and am loseing lbs of hard earned muscle. I don't seem to enjoy anything anymore lately except being with my wife. Here is what I use to look like...

 

[HighIntensity]

pray

no cycle

I am sure he was a great man, recall what he ment to you...I am sure he would want you to move on and be happy with your new family.

HI

 

[CrimsonKing]

Sorry for your loss..

Seek help.. Get on a SRRI NOW! (ie Prozac) It will help with the depression

 

[AAA]

Sorry to hear that! You and your family are in my prayers!

 

[Burndaddy1]

go ahead and take some time off to recharge, don't start a cycle now you need to get yourself in order first that is most important.
enjoy you new marriage, this feeling doesn't last forever.

condolences on you loss.

 

[big4life]

Allow yourself to grieve. Everyone likes to put up these walls where we think we have to act strong for everyone else. You can be strong for them just remember to allow yourself some time to mourn. Showing your emotion is not a weakness, in fact it is very helpful. Time will help ease the pain. You will still hurt, but eventually the times that you will remember will be the good times that you had together.

I am sorry for your loss.

 

[ROLGOR]

I'm sorry for your pain. I agree with the others. No cycle. get prozac ect. Your father was a strong man. His son is to. You need to deal with your depression not run from it. Good luck and God bless.

 

[MP5]

don't do a cycle, your body is already under a lot of stress. Just get some creatine to maintain. Take your aggressions out at the gym. Bro, you need to come to peace with it or it will eat you alive. Go and be by yourself somewhere and cry it out. Then move on as the new leader of your families name.

 

[hippedy hop]

sorry to hear inkman....

Keep working out it will ease some anxeity , remember that your father had a good life and was a very courageous man (purple heart). I'm sure your mother and father would want you to go on with your life. Take some time to think about the good times and then think about your future your wife possibly kids. Just think one day you may have a son that is just as proud of you as you were proud of your father.

Be Strong- good luck with your marriage!!!!

 

[Frackal]

don't do a cycle, your body is already under a lot of stress. Just get some creatine to maintain. Take your aggressions out at the gym. Bro, you need to come to peace with it or it will eat you alive. Go and be by yourself somewhere and cry it out. Then move on as the new leader of your families name.

thats probably the best advice...just grieve, deal with that and then when it begins to subside start your cycle, you will grow back quickly. Cant always maintain peak condition in this life my man.