lesson in life: love yourself, learn to love yourself...if you can.

[Paulos]

HI I love you broly.

 

[Nathan]

Uh oh, Detective Velvett is on the case.

 

[HighIntensity]

Then I am confused. Earlier you posted the following:



Now you say you are not fake, which is it?

Is it fake to look good? That is all I have done, my actions twords others have never really changed. My outside apperance has.

 

[velvett]

That was a bit cold Velvett.

Why do I get the impression you feel threatened by a macho male persona?

Care to elucidate the choir?

Fonz

You just don't get it.

When I can gather my thoughts and reasonings in a written manner I will explain why you have misunderstood my comment.


There's very little that I am threatened by and male machismo is almost comical in thought.

 

[big4life]

This post is going to sound dumb coming from the persona that most on the board believe that I represent in life. But I realized tonight that the biggest problem in my life is that I do not have much love for myself. I have spent the last seven years of my life perfecting an image of how I would like people to perceive me. I have bought the best clothes, drive a nice car, basically transformed myself into what I think people enjoy. In creating this image I have taken great risks with my health and life.

And why because deep down I am a very caring person, will loads of empathy and always opening my heart up to be hurt. I learned overtime to hide this gifts, for pain will always be present if you bear you sole. Deep down I am just as scared as anyone else in life, especially with women. I may come across in life as brass and confident but in reality I can be quite shy. I fear this shyness because over the years I have found few women who embrace shyness, empathy, caring as traits the find sexy. Maybe it’s the women I have dated but I try to cover these up with an amour of muscle and cockiness. I guess it all boils down to not loving myself deep down, something I am not sure will ever change. I guess I wonder who else deals with this challenge in life?

Dude, if you love yourself anymore than you already do, you are going to end up dating a mirror.

 

[velvett]

Is it fake to look good? That is all I have done, my actions twords others have never really changed. My outside apperance has.

Then what's your problem?




What is the purpose of this post? To prove to people that you are NOT the arrogant pretty boy that you pretend to be on the boards, that your looks are not absolutely everything to you.

Oh I know - HIGHIntensity is just a ficticous character you've made up.

Since most of us don't know you personally in the flesh to be your friend or even consider being loyal to you how you portray yourself here is how people will see and understand you.

Have your heart broken a few times? Who hasn't? Think you're the only person that has a brick wall around your heart?

Have you posted this to feel some support from others like you that have had there heart broken, and others like you that are scared to death not to be perfect, not to love someone and not to be loved back?

You want someone to hold out their hand to you and be supportive the try and be real even if it means being totally insecure.

Why don't you stay off that pedestal you seem to have fallen off some time ago and figure out who the hell you really are and want to be for yourself and realize that regardless of any heartbreak you may encounter you still have worth but you are the only person that can give you value.

Hair, clothes, car, job, money - if that is all you can define yourself then you are nothing.

 

[HighIntensity]

Then what's your problem?




What is the purpose of this post? To prove to people that you are NOT the arrogant pretty boy that you pretend to be on the boards, that your looks are not absolutely everything to you.

Oh I know - HIGHIntensity is just a ficticous character you've made up.

Since most of us don't know you personally in the flesh to be your friend or even consider being loyal to you how you portray yourself here is how people will see and understand you.

Have your heart broken a few times? Who hasn't? Think you're the only person that has a brick wall around your heart?

Have you posted this to feel some support from others like you that have had there heart broken, and others like you that are scared to death not to be perfect, not to love someone and not to be loved back?

You want someone to hold out their hand to you and be supportive the try and be real even if it means being totally insecure.

Why don't you stay off that pedestal you seem to have fallen off some time ago and figure out who the hell you really are and want to be for yourself and realize that regardless of any heartbreak you may encounter you still have worth but you are the only person that can give you value.

Hair, clothes, car, job, money - if that is all you can define yourself then you are nothing.

since you really have no clue who I am, just refrain from posting on this thread anymore. I wrote this for myself more then anyone and it helped. This month has brought with it the news that I may be very sick, and some other unpleasent problems...I just needed to vent, is that o.k.. with you?

 

[velvett]

Your behavior is very normal when people find out that the "it can't happen to me" happens to them.

You're health problem (I know I read it on the Ana board) has little to do with trying to be what everyone wants you to be to be liked and has more to do with the a certain type of realization which I believe you have had.









I know, I've had the very same realization.

 

[Citruscide]

DOn't worry about the haters HI... be true to yourself... that's all that matters.

C-ditty

 

[Nathan]

It's not too late to turn this thread around into one solely devoted to discussing me and all my glory.