I do have self esteem issues. I'm very introverted. I was teased alot when I was younger, so it's hard to break that mentality. The only time I feel like a alpha badass is in the gym when I'm repping 315 on bench, squatting 495, barbell rowing 315, or shoulder pressing the 100s. I guess that's why I love working out, it gives me the mindset that I would like to always have. (no e-stats) (yes juicer)