I might have a serious problem here

[ryno9000]

I am the biggest I have ever been in my life(according to scale). I am the strongest I have ever been in my life. I am not the leanest, but I am still very lean by genetics. I am geared to the gills, and everyone that sees me comments on how I look. But I honestly have reverse anorexia. I look in the mirror and think I look pathetic. I am just not happy with my progress, thinking I should be far better than I am. When I started this whole thing, and began taking gear again last year, I was happy with my results. Although far smaller I felt good and big. I liked the way I looked and felt strong even though I was weak compared to me now. My life is good in all other areas, I am not dissatisfied with my life or depressed. This only relates to my body image and although my brain tells me that I must be better than I see myself, I cannot believe it because of what I see in the mirror. Ummmmm..HELP.

 

[c24k]

i have the same feeling about myself of course i'm not all bulked up but i can't get it out of my head i must get bigger i must get bigger, reading your thread now i know that i'm not alone on this. Sometimes its a scary feeling. I dont' always get it but when i do i feel like i should just take as much as i can and go to the gym and workout till my heart explodes. A couple of years ago i was literally obssesed with my muscles and getting bigger and bigger it was ridiculous and hurt my relationship with my ex fiancee and even my parents thought i had a problem as well. I just don't say anything to anyone now.

 

[ConanX]

I was happier with the way I looked back when I was halfway through my first injectable cycle. I thought I was king of the world. Now, I look MUCH better (bigger and more ripped), but I am not as happy with myself. Want more...

I think that's the way it is....maybe it's the juice playin' mind games? lol

 

[-SD-]

if you are still in your 20's it will pass as you get older and get more responsibilities/life. When you are just a young single guy that does nothing but work out/juice/job/chase tail you tend to focus on just yourself.

 

[needtogetaas]

if you are still in your 20's it will pass as you get older and get more responsibilities/life. When you are just a young single guy that does nothing but work out/juice/job/chase tail you tend to focus on just yourself.

true

 

[HAYEZ]

lol i feel i look like shit 99% of the time..i need to hang out with small people i think..all my friends that lift are shredded but i dont get very lean so i always look like the fat kid

 

[enacer420nj]

its dysmorphia bro...alot of girls that think they are fat have it when they look in the mirror and arent actually fat so they become anorexic.Learn to love youself...masturbate to a mirror and tell yourself "I AM BIG AND BEAUTIFUL"

 

[c24k]

its dysmorphia bro...alot of girls that think they are fat have it when they look in the mirror and arent actually fat so they become anorexic.learn to love youself...masturbate to a mirror and tell yourself "i am big and beautiful"

lmfao!!! Nice.

 

[Nelson Montana]

It's a common accurence and getting more common every day. I think part of the problem is the availability of gear. Years ago, (post legal gear and pre internet) steroids were hard to come by so they were a treat. You got a little -- saw amazing results and were happy.

Today, you still get that gratification, at first, but there's always more gear available. After a while, it's like...how much bigger do you need to be? It doesn;t look any different. The scale can say you gained 10 pounds but you still look the same, you just take up more space.

It's also easy...so it offers less satisfaction.

In many ways, I'm glad I didn't do steroids for so long. It made me appreciate the process.

Steroids are like being handed a million dollars a day. Sounds great, but after a while, even that will become a big "so what."

Just appreciate it. (Summer's coming). Train to get lean. Look forward to other things. There's more to do in life than have muscles. But it's nice having muscles while you do them.

 

[ryno9000]

Damn I love the group therapy of these boards! Those were all good answers. Glad I am not the only one and glad you guys actually care. Its just bothering me because I KNOW its not true but I literally see different that other people. So weird. And Nelson you are right about the not looking much differnt but just taking up more space. Last winter when I started gear again (I started with a base most of you would have disaaproved of) It was amazing because of the transistion. Started growing muscles like rear delts etc. and so the transformation was much greater. Sigh...I'll just have to live with this tiny ugly body I guess.