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I have been Sober for 4 weeks tonight>

Cograts bro! Keep it going and live life to the fullest!!!! We are here for you and support you all the way!
 
Congrats. Hang in there.

Alcoholism runs in my family and I had my bout with it when I was younger in the military. If I have my wife to thank for one thing it is not tolerating my drinking.

BTW: Scotch tastes like shit anyway lol
 
pappad said:
Cograts bro! Keep it going and live life to the fullest!!!! We are here for you and support you all the way!
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Thanks. I have always kept things like that to myself however Ive learned through counseling that support is everthing, Thats half my problem is that I always keep things in,..,.
 
Army Vet said:
Congrats. Hang in there.

Alcoholism runs in my family and I had my bout with it when I was younger in the military. If I have my wife to thank for one thing it is not tolerating my drinking.

BTW: Scotch tastes like shit anyway lol
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Same here it runs in my family and it gets you very easily....In the beginiing you work go home at night and enjoy a drink or two thennnnnn it goes to work home staying up later to drink then you drink and work drink and work.. vicious cycle.... I am done with it.. I have a prescription to Antibuse and Xanaxs to help with the dts..... BTW this is the first time I have every shared anything about my personal life with anyone outside my circkle..thanks
 
Arabian said:
I have been sober the longest time since my divorce with the help of counseling,meetings and determination... Just saying..... Scotch is a drug
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Congrats, bro. Didn't know you hit the sauce hard.

I'm 19 days into my 100 day "wagon" ride.
 
Yes I just totalled my new car and I dont even remember it. I walked home after a business meeting ... That makes three new cars in 2 years.. Im done
 
we should go get pissed bro
 
Arabian said:
Same here it runs in my family and it gets you very easily....In the beginiing you work go home at night and enjoy a drink or two thennnnnn it goes to work home staying up later to drink then you drink and work drink and work.. vicious cycle.... I am done with it.. I have a prescription to Antibuse and Xanaxs to help with the dts..... BTW this is the first time I have every shared anything about my personal life with anyone outside my circkle..thanks
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I keep most of my personal life under wraps too. It took me a while just to post pics and the baby and all.

I remember reading a post (I think it was stiletto) who mentioned someone stalking her or something. People can get out of control on the internet.

On another note it is good to use this as a forum to open up. People here have shared the same experiences and it help us all to cope.
 
Paul_Allen said:
grey goose is a helluva drug
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I cant belive she would put up with someone stalking her without taking down the persons site..... We use to do that in the beginning on the EF roid board back in the ealry 2002 when someone would scam someone.. I think it overloads there bandwidth or somthing..
 
ortiz34 said:
pretty much bro
I like to party, full throttle
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Well Im in no position to give advice howevever that has to be Hell.. .much worse than drinking I guess... I wish I had the money Ive spent on alcohol
 
Arabian said:
Yes I just totalled my new car and I dont even remember it. I walked home after a business meeting ... That makes three new cars in 2 years.. Im done
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When my 100 day stint is up on the wagon, I plan to resume getting shit faced 1 weekend night per week, but definitely no drinking and driving.
 
PICK3 said:
When my 100 day stint is up on the wagon, I plan to resume getting shit faced 1 weekend night per week, but definitely no drinking and driving.
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Im never going back like I was.. it is insanity
 
Arabian said:
Yes I just totalled my new car and I dont even remember it. I walked home after a business meeting ... That makes three new cars in 2 years.. Im done
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there's usuallly a point that one says, "Enough already", and makes a change. Some it can take very little, others,years of misery. As I've posted before, look at stopping drinking in smaller timeframes. It's damn near impossible to stop drinking forever, but almost anybody can stop drinking for the next hour, or day. Then you keep stringing those together.
I'm here if you need me. With any luck I'll have one more day myself tomorrow. On Oct 3rd, God willing, I'll have put 8 years of those 5 minute, or hour timeframes together.
 
Congrats bro.

If you ever need to talk, I'm a PM away
 
txbondsman said:
there's usuallly a point that one says, "Enough already", and makes a change. Some it can take very little, others,years of misery. As I've posted before, look at stopping drinking in smaller timeframes. It's damn near impossible to stop drinking forever, but almost anybody can stop drinking for the next hour, or day. Then you keep stringing those together.
I'm here if you need me. With any luck I'll have one more day myself tomorrow. On Oct 3rd, God willing, I'll have put 8 years of those 5 minute, or hour timeframes together.
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I actually went through withdrawal and now I am on medication that prevents and curves the cravings and its working well...I know all I post about is work however I cant wait to get back to my buisness
 
Arabian said:
I have been sober the longest time since my divorce with the help of counseling,meetings and determination... Just saying..... Scotch is a drug
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Congratulations.
One day at a time does it.
 
Good luck bro, I am also a recovering addict and know the pains you deal with. Just like txbondsman(who happens to be brilliant on this subject)1 minute to 1 hour to 1 day and piece them together .I'm at almost 130 days and 1 minute now and every day I'm alive is the happiest day of my life
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Good luck bro, I am also a recovering addict and know the pains you deal with. Just like txbondsman(who happens to be brilliant on this subject)1 minute to 1 hour to 1 day and piece them together .I'm at almost 130 days and 1 minute now and every day I'm alive is the happiest day of my life
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yet, you like to take low blows to my addiction
We all live in glass houses
 
ortiz34 said:
yet, you like to take low blows to my addiction
We all live in glass houses
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Bro it's not even about glass houses the reason i take shots at you is because you come here and tell people that you had enough and than joke about getting fucked up.I actually think you are very quick whitted intelligent person who would excel in the world with the right help you just need to quit talking about it and fuckin do it.And if you wanna talk about it pm me Anytime
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Bro it's not even about glass houses the reason i take shots at you is because you come here and tell people that you had enough and than joke about getting fucked up.I actually think you are very quick whitted intelligent person who would excel in the world with the right help you just need to quit talking about it and fuckin do it.And if you wanna talk about it pm me Anytime
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bro, don't beat around the bush, he's a fucking asshole :heart:
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Good luck bro, I am also a recovering addict and know the pains you deal with. Just like txbondsman(who happens to be brilliant on this subject)1 minute to 1 hour to 1 day and piece them together .I'm at almost 130 days and 1 minute now and every day I'm alive is the happiest day of my life
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wow, that's a real post right there... right on brother. Cheers to that.
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Good luck bro, I am also a recovering addict and know the pains you deal with. Just like txbondsman(who happens to be brilliant on this subject)1 minute to 1 hour to 1 day and piece them together .I'm at almost 130 days and 1 minute now and every day I'm alive is the happiest day of my life
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^^ yep, that's how it's done, and it shifts form one to the next at will. Some days it's minute to minute, some you seem to slide through, it's just that way.

WOW HHC, that's great, 130 is very good. Just keep doing the right things.
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Bro it's not even about glass houses the reason i take shots at you is because you come here and tell people that you had enough and than joke about getting fucked up.I actually think you are very quick whitted intelligent person who would excel in the world with the right help you just need to quit talking about it and fuckin do it.And if you wanna talk about it pm me Anytime
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I don't understand bro, I haven't touched that burning fire since late May

Anyhow, I think we just misunderstood eachother bro. it's all good.

The only reason I like to talk about it is
A) It's what I think about alot (mental fucking)
B) I'm not ashamed, and need and like to offer my support when someone has a problem. We all do.
C) I like to talk about because I realize just what a dumbass I am, and I can laugh at myself. Which I think is a good mental state towards recovery.

peace
 
juiceddreadlocks said:
Really, reading this thread just kept me from going to the liquor store to get more booze. Not kidding at all.
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go for a walk
or a bike ride bro
go buy a nice outfit or electronic item
something like that
 
ortiz34 said:
go for a walk
or a bike ride bro
go buy a nice outfit or electronic item
something like that
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Sorry if I misunderstood you bro,Recovery is a full time job and every one has different problems but an addict is an addict and i don't care if your vice is having a couple vodkas every day or waking up and banging 10 bags of dope before you get your coffee every morning,We all have the same struggles day to day.Hell,my mother is a full time drunk and my sister is hooked on oxys I fight the demons every fuckin day but in the end the fight is so worth it.Because life is a gift and i want to unwrap it
 
Arabian said:
I have been sober the longest time since my divorce with the help of counseling,meetings and determination... Just saying..... Scotch is a drug
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Congrats to Arabian (and all the others on EF)
One day at a time.
15 years for me and loving every minute of it.
 
ricco561 said:
Congrats to Arabian (and all the others on EF)
One day at a time.
15 years for me and loving every minute of it.
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^5! way to go, Ricco! < rhymes

I think that you would agree with this, we keep talking in days, months, and sometimes years. It's really just one, after one, after one, then another day, infinity. It can and often is a shorter period, 5 minutes, HELL sometimes one! But my point is it's just as the saying goes, "one day at a time"...

Therefore, who is the person with the longest sobriety?
The person who woke up first today.
 
jnevin said:
I know exactly what you mean.
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btw, have a "little" extra willpower there? LMAO

being a Daddy will certainly put everything in perspective, huhh nev... :-)
 
txbondsman said:
btw, have a "little" extra willpower there? LMAO

being a Daddy will certainly put everything in perspective, huhh nev... :-)
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Yeah it does. I don't want to have missed out on anything because I was drunk. Whether it's calming her down from crying, changing a poopy diaper, anything. It's still hard for me. The habitual part of it makes me so annoyed and angry sometimes. That passes and I feel a bit better. It just feels like as soon as I get done with work, I'm on edge for the rest of the day. Even if I work out until I'm sick, I get this anxious energy and feel like I could punch someone's face so hard my hand would break through the back of their head.
 
jnevin said:
Yeah it does. I don't want to have missed out on anything because I was drunk. Whether it's calming her down from crying, changing a poopy diaper, anything. It's still hard for me. The habitual part of it makes me so annoyed and angry sometimes. That passes and I feel a bit better. It just feels like as soon as I get done with work, I'm on edge for the rest of the day. Even if I work out until I'm sick, I get this anxious energy and feel like I could punch someone's face so hard my hand would break through the back of their head.
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ahhhhh, welcome to LIFE! Learning to deal with shit sober is a MF'er isn't it! And now you can't act like a complete asshole, someone is depending on you NOT to. and there's consequences if you do, which is certainly different.

You'll learn new ways to cope, in time. but until then, you have business to attend to, whether it's changing time or feeding, your da man! But you get the awsome title for all that, Daddy. It more than makes up for it.

Never try to swalow too much at any time, take time out for yourself when you can, eat well, and get plenty of rest when she's asleep. You don't want to be tired if you can help it.

You don't have to stop drinking forever, just for today. Tomorrow's not here yet, so don't worry about then. It's just for this afternoon, you can hold off till tonight, etc.

Your a good man, you can do it.
 
txbondsman said:
^5! way to go, Ricco! < rhymes

I think that you would agree with this, we keep talking in days, months, and sometimes years. It's really just one, after one, after one, then another day, infinity. It can and often is a shorter period, 5 minutes, HELL sometimes one! But my point is it's just as the saying goes, "one day at a time"...

Therefore, who is the person with the longest sobriety?
The person who woke up first today.
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So true.
After awhile those minutes add up and one day you wake up and it's a year. And then so on, and so on.......
Early sobriety can be tough and a test, but it will work.
Arabian: if you have any questions (or anybody), please PM me. I'm more then happy to help.
 
ricco561 said:
So true.
After awhile those minutes add up and one day you wake up and it's a year. And then so on, and so on.......
Early sobriety can be tough and a test, but it will work.
Arabian: if you have any questions (or anybody), please PM me. I'm more then happy to help.
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+1, (international symbol for "no rawr")
 
jnevin said:
Yeah it does. I don't want to have missed out on anything because I was drunk. Whether it's calming her down from crying, changing a poopy diaper, anything. It's still hard for me. The habitual part of it makes me so annoyed and angry sometimes. That passes and I feel a bit better. It just feels like as soon as I get done with work, I'm on edge for the rest of the day. Even if I work out until I'm sick, I get this anxious energy and feel like I could punch someone's face so hard my hand would break through the back of their head.
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In addition to my other posts.
Jnev, be patient with your SO, and the people around you. You'll have to learn what she is like when your sober and vice versa, especially for extended periods of time. We have to re-learn who the other one is, almost like yall just met. We're not the same people. There will be differences, some big- most small, but all the personalities change to some degree.

There's alot of changes in your world right now, just try and roll with the flow...... deep breaths, hold your tongue, and smile when you may not feel like smilin'. Just till things settle down......
 
txbondsman said:
In addition to my other posts.
Jnev, be patient with your SO, and the people around you. You'll have to learn what she is like when your sober and vice versa, especially for extended periods of time. We have to re-learn who the other one is, almost like yall just met. We're not the same people. There will be differences, some big- most small, but all the personalities change to some degree.

There's alot of changes in your world right now, just try and roll with the flow...... deep breaths, hold your tongue, and smile when you may not feel like smilin'. Just till things settle down......
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Txbondsman is one awesome bro and a very wise one at that
 
txbondsman said:
In addition to my other posts.
Jnev, be patient with your SO, and the people around you. You'll have to learn what she is like when your sober and vice versa, especially for extended periods of time. We have to re-learn who the other one is, almost like yall just met. We're not the same people. There will be differences, some big- most small, but all the personalities change to some degree.

There's alot of changes in your world right now, just try and roll with the flow...... deep breaths, hold your tongue, and smile when you may not feel like smilin'. Just till things settle down......
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Again.............all great advice.
Oh, and get a sponsor.
 
I just slipped up and snorted Ajax from under the sink at work
 
good stuff I tell ya
I'm going to the wholesale club tonight and wiping them out
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Txbondsman is one awesome bro and a very wise one at that
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Life is odd, this is a subject that I have a PHD in. You see me writing, giving advise, telling stories, etc, I hope that some of it sinks in and may help somebody to not drink or drug for today. But in reality, the advice is me telling it to myself so I don't forget, the stories are for the same reason, to keep the feeling real. As the big book says, "we don't want to dwell on the past, but we don't want to forget it either", so it helps me as much or more than it helps anybody. Also, it's step 12, "to help other alcoholics ( I say addicts) who still suffer"....

Any wisdom that I have has been bought and paid for many times over with heartbreak and tears, mostly my families. I could only hope that it doesn't happen to any of you or your families. So, I'll keep witing and telling my stories in hopes that it doesn't...
 
txbondsman said:
Life is odd, this is a subject that I have a PHD in. You see me writing, giving advise, telling stories, etc, I hope that some of it sinks in and may help somebody to not drink or drug for today. But in reality, the advice is me telling it to myself so I don't forget, the stories are for the same reason, to keep the feeling real. As the big book says, "we don't want to dwell on the past, but we don't want to forget it either", so it helps me as much or more than it helps anybody. Also, it's step 12, "to help other alcoholics ( I say addicts) who still suffer"....

Any wisdom that I have has been bought and paid for many times over with heartbreak and tears, mostly my families. I could only hope that it doesn't happen to any of you or your families. So, I'll keep witing and telling my stories in hopes that it doesn't...
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Thanks for sharing
 
txbondsman said:
Life is odd, this is a subject that I have a PHD in. You see me writing, giving advise, telling stories, etc, I hope that some of it sinks in and may help somebody to not drink or drug for today. But in reality, the advice is me telling it to myself so I don't forget, the stories are for the same reason, to keep the feeling real. As the big book says, "we don't want to dwell on the past, but we don't want to forget it either", so it helps me as much or more than it helps anybody. Also, it's step 12, "to help other alcoholics ( I say addicts) who still suffer"....

Any wisdom that I have has been bought and paid for many times over with heartbreak and tears, mostly my families. I could only hope that it doesn't happen to any of you or your families. So, I'll keep witing and telling my stories in hopes that it doesn't...
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That's why I went into the addiction field.
Helping others yes, but mostly, keeping me sober.
 
ricco561 said:
So true.
After awhile those minutes add up and one day you wake up and it's a year. And then so on, and so on.......
Early sobriety can be tough and a test, but it will work.
Arabian: if you have any questions (or anybody), please PM me. I'm more then happy to help.
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Thanks
 
ricco561 said:
That's why I went into the addiction field.
Helping others yes, but mostly, keeping me sober.
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yep, and I didn't know it at the time, but it was why in the big plan, God's not mine, I was to be a bondsman I truely believe. Who do I have to deal with 99% of the time, addicts. And, when your comming out of jail, most have an open mind as to alternatives. They get to come out and who do they see? ME! LOL
They get the full treatment if they are willing to listen.... lol
 
The hardest part for me is the fact that I'm extremely functional. The only times I ever missed or was late to work was when I'd do drugs. I can't remember the last time I did the white devil. Booze just calms me. I know I have a problem with it since it was a daily thing for me to drink close to a fifth and never seemed drunk to my wife-ish. I'd cover it up by having a beer when I got home and she'd think that's why my breath would stink.
 
txbondsman said:
yep, and I didn't know it at the time, but it was why in the big plan, God's not mine, I was to be a bondsman I truely believe. Who do I have to deal with 99% of the time, addicts. And, when your comming out of jail, most have an open mind as to alternatives. They get to come out and who do they see? ME! LOL
They get the full treatment if they are willing to listen.... lol
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Attraction rather then promotion, eh?
 
jnevin said:
The hardest part for me is the fact that I'm extremely functional. The only times I ever missed or was late to work was when I'd do drugs. I can't remember the last time I did the white devil. Booze just calms me. I know I have a problem with it since it was a daily thing for me to drink close to a fifth and never seemed drunk to my wife-ish. I'd cover it up by having a beer when I got home and she'd think that's why my breath would stink.
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If you need to hide or cover up your drinking.......................
 
ricco561 said:
But are you doing anything about it?
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Probably not as much as I should.

Definitely not as I should.

I went 8 months before, stopped going to meetings, and was right back where I started within weeks.

I think txbondsman really hit it when he said you have to re-learn who you are and who everyone around you is when your head clears.
 
jnevin said:
Probably not as much as I should.

Definitely not as I should.

I went 8 months before, stopped going to meetings, and was right back where I started within weeks.

I think txbondsman really hit it when he said you have to re-learn who you are and who everyone around you is when your head clears.
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You definitely do. One day, one step at a time.
When you are ready, the program will be there.
I wish you luck, Bro.
 
The will to get sober came to me when i had nothing left but tears and the filthy shirt on my back , and I can remember getting down on my knees crying and just screaming at GOD for help.......And help he did
 
hog#head#cheese said:
The will to get sober came to me when i had nothing left but tears and the filthy shirt on my back , and I can remember getting down on my knees crying and just screaming at GOD for help.......And help he did
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That's kind of a problem I have with the program as well.

It'd be hard for me to pray to something I don't believe in.
 
Arabian said:
Yes I just totalled my new car and I dont even remember it. I walked home after a business meeting ... That makes three new cars in 2 years.. Im done
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Congrats bro and just take it one day at a time!! Sorry to hear about your car but I'm glad you was ok because I don't want to lose anymore bros!!
 
jnevin said:
I know I have a problem with it since it was a daily thing for me to drink close to a fifth and never seemed drunk to my wife-ish. I'd cover it up by having a beer when I got home and she'd think that's why my breath would stink.
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That's my boy
salesman at his best
always one step ahead of teh dumb
 
No offense, to everyone. I can't believe people here think I'm messed up.... I don't drink, do drugs, and I take great care of my body... Maybe they just think I'm an asshole.
 
I remember when I use to snort(never iv) heroin or OCs I use to take benadryl to help with itching my face off (tell tale sign for the wif that I was using heavy narcotics)
Only problem is the benadryl combined with opiates made me nod like a MUTHA_FUCKA

Me=pwned
 
ortiz34 said:
I remember when I use to snort(never iv) heroin or OCs I use to take benadryl to help with itching my face off (tell tale sign for the wif that I was using heavy narcotics)
Only problem is the benadryl combined with opiates made me nod like a MUTHA_FUCKA

Me=pwned
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Heroin and Oc's were the straw that broke the camels back
 
hog#head#cheese said:
Heroin and Oc's were the straw that broke the camels back
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been there too bro
had to go into a locked down rehab facility for a week
OCs were great when u had them, but it was the end of the world physically when ya didn't.
 
hog#head#cheese said:
The will to get sober came to me when i had nothing left but tears and the filthy shirt on my back , and I can remember getting down on my knees crying and just screaming at GOD for help.......And help he did
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and always will, when he is sought....

that's your three majic words! God help Me! They make everything possible.
When shit's getting too much to handel and the monster is on your back, whether it's alcohol, crack, meth, whatever your deal is, when the monster is trying to pull your brain out through your nostrils, have that moment of clarity to use your majic words. Then be still and let it work. If you can get to family, a meeting, sponsor or sober friends, that's when you make the mad dash out of there. An alcoholic alone when his mind isn't right is in bad company.
I found that there was only two times that I never used, 1) when I was praying, 2) when I was at a meeting. I'd pick one or both of those till your OK.
 
calveless wonder said:
i like your sig arabian

puts things in perspective
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it leaves out the getting his head blown off thingie


and cheers arabian, i can't imagine ever not drinking
i don't drink that often, maybe once a month, but i enjoy carousing
 
juiceddreadlocks said:
there's a kenny chesney song, actually two which deal with this subject. "The Good Stuff'' and "That's Why I'm Here"
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good call Juiced, thought I'd enbed for others to hear.

That's why I'm here.... too.

(compliments of Juiceddreads)

 
I can’t, He can, I think I’ll let him.
We all have the power to change, but it's the will to change that sets us apart.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Thousands of others, but Nike said it best;
Just Do It.
 
I understand how you feel, work stress and an unhappy personal life, pieces of your life ripped away... I REALLY understand.

Thank goodness you weren't seriously hurt.

I am happy to hear that you are facing issues head on. We are all here to help. :)
 
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