Day two of sobriety

[txbondsman]

"Like I've been saying, I really don't think I'm at the level of most addicts."

That thought is what keeps most addicts in their addiction.
Listen to the good advice you got here.
Go to meetings, believe in a higher power and clean house.
It's a simple program with amzing results.

yep, that statement is one of utter denial and will lead quickly to the death spiral. Your somehow different, that's the wise thinking of almost all adicts, before they realize that it's complete BS. Sorry for the shit your gonna have to go through, it's hell, but if you live through it, maybe you won't be so "special", and that will get you to the mindset that can lead to sobriety.

good luck to you...

 

[txbondsman]

this is to the gentleman/lady that left me a great PM. You haven't posted here yet but I have the "feelings disease" also. I was randomly flipping through my big book today and this came up, I thought of you. It's CH 12, page 544, first paragraph, in the 3rd edition...

The mental twists that led up to my drinking began many years before I ever took my first drink for I am one of those whose history proves conclusively that my drinking was "a symptom of a deeper trouble."
Through my efforts to get down to "causes and conditions" I stand convinced that my emotional illness has been present from my earliest recollection. I never did react normally to any emotional situation.

sounds all to familiar to me....

 

[ricco561]

this is to the gentleman/lady that left me a great PM. You haven't posted here yet but I have the "feelings disease" also. I was randomly flipping through my big book today and this came up, I thought of you. It's CH 12, page 544, first paragraph, in the 3rd edition...

The mental twists that led up to my drinking began many years before I ever took my first drink for I am one of those whose history proves conclusively that my drinking was "a symptom of a deeper trouble."
Through my efforts to get down to "causes and conditions" I stand convinced that my emotional illness has been present from my earliest recollection. I never did react normally to any emotional situation.

sounds all to familiar to me....

So true.

 

[motodawg]

this is to the gentleman/lady that left me a great PM. You haven't posted here yet but I have the "feelings disease" also. I was randomly flipping through my big book today and this came up, I thought of you. It's CH 12, page 544, first paragraph, in the 3rd edition...

The mental twists that led up to my drinking began many years before I ever took my first drink for I am one of those whose history proves conclusively that my drinking was "a symptom of a deeper trouble."
Through my efforts to get down to "causes and conditions" I stand convinced that my emotional illness has been present from my earliest recollection. I never did react normally to any emotional situation.

sounds all to familiar to me....

I can relate bro I won't get deep but two addicts trying to recover together is tough i pray you find recovery not just abstinence. Because abstinence does not equal recovery.

 

[txbondsman]

I can relate bro I won't get deep but two addicts trying to recover together is tough i pray you find recovery not just abstinence. Because abstinence does not equal recovery.

^^^ yes, very true. It's the peace of mind and serinity that makes everything worth while, and in that you find happiness.
thanks MD for that....

 

[ortiz34]

I feel like sucking the devils dick tonight

 

[txbondsman]

I feel like sucking the devils dick tonight

then play the video w/ you jonesing for the last crumb, checking the couch for some that you may have dropped for the 19th time, smoking some pizza or fried chicken crumbs thinking "maybe", crawling on your hands and knees looking in the carpet for hours because you just KNOW that at some point you MUST have dropped a morsel, hitting the pipe again and again and again just to burn your lips to the point that they are blistered, the anxiety, the depression. Think of that part, if you decide to use again, I'm sorry that your not through.

 

[ortiz34]

then play the video w/ you jonesing for the last crumb, checking the couch for some that you may have dropped for the 19th time, smoking some pizza or fried chicken crumbs thinking "maybe", crawling on your hands and knees looking in the carpet for hours because you just KNOW that at some point you MUST have dropped a morsel, hitting the pipe again and again and again just to burn your lips to the point that they are blistered, the anxiety, the depression. Think of that part, if you decide to use again, I'm sorry that your not through.

holy crap man
did you ever have a hidden camera in my house?

My buddy use to call me "rugrat"

 

[jnevin]

then play the video w/ you jonesing for the last crumb, checking the couch for some that you may have dropped for the 19th time, smoking some pizza or fried chicken crumbs thinking "maybe", crawling on your hands and knees looking in the carpet for hours because you just KNOW that at some point you MUST have dropped a morsel, hitting the pipe again and again and again just to burn your lips to the point that they are blistered, the anxiety, the depression. Think of that part, if you decide to use again, I'm sorry that your not through.

wow

vivid picture

 

[Beaverscratch]

Kratom is a great herb for opiate withdraw. Look it up.