Yeah, I definately feel puny most of the time. The only time I feel big is when I get those pumps from working out. WHat's funny is about 4 years ago at 5'11" I weighed in at a mere 120 pounds soaking wet. I now stand at around 250 pounds at the same height. I'll admit that I have a little gut and the love handles.lol But still a hell of alot bigger than I used to be. This damn bigorexia is driving me nuts. So much damn anxiety that if I miss one meal I am small again. It's like I keep on having to ask my friends if I am small and they are like what is that a joke? I've never touched roids yet. I'm almost afraid to, cause I am going to feel all massive while on and then when I come off I'll have that damn getting skinny mentality really bad, I know it. Oh well, gotta go eat some food, I can sware I'm already getting smaller even as I type this.