p0ink said:
golden, are you really a mystery and crew follower.
no. they have their part, but hwat im about is knowing who we as people are, how we fit into the world, then communicating those things, and building a reality that i like.
i like having good people around me.
i like those people to be aware of (the same things taht im aware of)
then you wake up in a world where you know who you are, the peopel in your world know who they are, and then just...being myself.
i have more people in my life than i know what to do with, including people who want to have sex with me - not because i fool them into it, but rather, because i offer a doorway into a way of being where they can just do what they want without being made to feel like shit - where they can offer love, kindness, and respect, and have it reciprocated, in a world thats actually worth being a part of.
i think its better than the standard world view where you have to go out, work at some job that you hate so as to demonstrate that youre worth being around/knowing, and pray that people you want to be around somehow pick up on it and invite you into their world
i have a huge influence in my world. i identify and incorperate awesome people into it. i make great parties. i make people (including myself) feel awesome. i serve others as much as serve myself. the only reason that you can see what i do as self service is because i spend so much time changing other people realities.
its come to the point now where i dont feel like im serving myself anymore. critical mass was hit a few months ago. i feel like im serving others. and it feels good
