it's not a matter of how the gear makes you feel or what you have the "balls" to do once you're on it
it's a matter of how KNOWING you are an "outsider" has affected your social life
do people view you as a scumbag? cheater? weirdo?
or are you dedicated, passionate, hard-working, goal oriented?
for example at work i'm definitely the biggest guy, but it's a corporate culture so i have to be careful how i carry myself
i have to make sure i don't give people reasons to attribute any negative behavior to my assumed use of the juice
yes people ask, but i'm selective. yet at the same time when i speak about my steroid use it's a charismatic conversation where i do my best to address any absurd claim that steroids will flat out kill you
but before any of that i discuss diet and training methods
to my friends and people i associate with i'm a walking example of someone who does it right (and yes i have a shit ton to learn still), and i'm sure MANY of you are as well
we are all responsible for adding or taking away the negative stigma attached to steroid use
we need to be smart, safe and educated