should i stop my run, going through a break up

[alltraps]

i baught a bunch of books and am reading them all. they are helping me see all the truth about the relationship that i didnt see before. i was in denile. i made too many sacrifices for her and she didnt even appreciate them. even what my family did for her, i dont believe she appreciated. but its ok. i learned a lot and forgive her fully. i knew long time ago this relationship was over. i knew she wasnt into me that much and the reason she treated me the way she did. it all makes sence now. i know she is happy now, and i wish her all the best in the world. i know i have said some cluel things about her on this thread, but those were my initial reactions to her rejection and betrayal. i feel relieved that it is over now and i can move on and do the things i want to do, instead of trying to please her all the time. i still have a lot of emptyness to deal with, but i know with time, i will get used to it and will be fine. every day that passes, i look back and realize more and more that this just wasnt meant to be right from the begining. i just fell for her really hard and wanted her to feel the same.
i truely believe that no matter what i would have done differently, things would still have turned out this way, sooner or later. she needed attention that i wasnt giving her for a few months and instead of talking about it to me, she ran to another person. that alone shows me that she is not ready for any downs in a relationship, just the ups. when things are good, she is happy, but when little things get in the way, she runs away. she is not ready for a good relationship. she just wants to have fun and be free. one day when she is ready to settle down and truely give someone her 100%, then she will be content with life. untill then, she can be a free spirit and experiecen the world for herself, and learn hard and hurtfill lessons. its the only way to learn, i could never teach her about those things, she has to feel them and experience them, and i must let her go and do that.

 

[bbkingpinn]

Stay away from CanadianCutie!!!

More K to you alltraps. I would've bet my life that my ex was incapable of treating me the way she did - good thing nobody took that bet ;-)

Toughest lesson learned - not everybody that gets your love will earn it, respect it, deserve it, cherish it or return it.

Take a look around bro - there's sweeter and hotter girls out there and even on this board (hi CanadianCutie). Just give it a little time for you to catch your breath - you just got the shit kicked out of you by the person closest to you. You need some recovery time. Trust me about seeing your doctor. The meds can really help you through this. Don't lose anymore weight - go to the gym - eat, eat, eat - sleep even if you need a sleeping pill or Gravol. Remember - there's only one person's love you really can't live without.... yours!!! Keep respecting yourself and indulge in lots of self love.

BTW - I found that there's a ton of books on this at the local library. I read constantly for the first couple months and found some stuff that worked for me - it's worth a shot bro.

J/K