juicedmullet said:
id do it all over again. being in love is an amazing feeling.
Hearing something like that makes me wonder if I missed out. I am not sure I have ever been in love. My wife is the only person I have ever had sex with, and that was not until after we were married (I grew up super religious).
I can't say my heart has ever been overcome by passion. When I was around 25 I actually made a list of what the woman I was going to marry had to be like - there were 7 categories that included :education, homemaking skills, hobbies and past times etc. I sort of shopped until I found someone who matched those qualities - ironically she was interested in me (she even called me to let me know she had someone in mind that I should marry - her) ; so I did not have to do alot of convincing to get her to marry me.
Our sex life has been busier than most, but regardless - I can't say I have ever been overcome with passion. Recently this young tart about half my age, who was a secretary at the office I work at (and now works at the gym I go to), made overtures and I have to admit for the first time in my life I almost gave in to pure feelings. But I did not do anything.
My life is good - and I have accomplished and earned a great many good things - but I envy you to have had such an adventure with your heart.
I don't know if perhaps I have been too afraid to let my heart have the reins in my life or if I just don't feel things as much as others. Before I married my wife I had a fair number of girls come on to me in all sorts of ways - several just straight asking if I wanted to f*ck. But I never felt all that overcome by any of it. When this 21 year old girl recently was coming on to me, I have to admit I felt very strong feelings that made me feel very weak and powerful at the same time. One time I asked her hypothetically if I was in my twenties and not married if she would have gone out with me - and she told me she would do so now, despite the 20 year age difference and the only reason she had not tried anything was because she did not want to ruin the good thing between my wife and I (I always speak highly of my wife) - I was really quite high the next 24 hours. I cannot imagine feeling something that strong and getting to act on it. Maybe I just don't feel as much as others?