lesson in life: love yourself, learn to love yourself...if you can.

[HighIntensity]

This post is going to sound dumb coming from the persona that most on the board believe that I represent in life. But I realized tonight that the biggest problem in my life is that I do not have much love for myself. I have spent the last seven years of my life perfecting an image of how I would like people to perceive me. I have bought the best clothes, drive a nice car, basically transformed myself into what I think people enjoy. In creating this image I have taken great risks with my health and life.

And why because deep down I am a very caring person, will loads of empathy and always opening my heart up to be hurt. I learned overtime to hide this gifts, for pain will always be present if you bear you sole. Deep down I am just as scared as anyone else in life, especially with women. I may come across in life as brass and confident but in reality I can be quite shy. I fear this shyness because over the years I have found few women who embrace shyness, empathy, caring as traits the find sexy. Maybe it’s the women I have dated but I try to cover these up with an amour of muscle and cockiness. I guess it all boils down to not loving myself deep down, something I am not sure will ever change. I guess I wonder who else deals with this challenge in life?

 

[revexrevex]

Wow,..... awesome post bro.

 

[biteme]

This post is going to sound dumb coming from the persona that most on the board believe that I represent in life. But I realized tonight that the biggest problem in my life is that I do not have much love for myself. I have spent the last seven years of my life perfecting an image of how I would like people to perceive me. I have bought the best clothes, drive a nice car, basically transformed myself into what I think people enjoy. In creating this image I have taken great risks with my health and life.

And why because deep down I am a very caring person, will loads of empathy and always opening my heart up to be hurt. I learned overtime to hide this gifts, for pain will always be present if you bear you sole. Deep down I am just as scared as anyone else in life, especially with women. I may come across in life as brass and confident but in reality I can be quite shy. I fear this shyness because over the years I have found few women who embrace shyness, empathy caring as traits. Maybe it’s the women I have dated by I try to cover these up with an amour of muscle and cockiness. I guess it all boils down to not loving myself deep down, something I am not sure will ever change. I guess I wonder who else deals with this challenge in life?

I knew that all along. That's why I have never commented negatively on your posts. I saw you as deep down, really a good person.

 

[revexrevex]

It could be estrogen in you talking.

 

[The Red Dragon]

Don't live for other people, period. There's no self fulfillment that way.

 

[Imakarum_Mirabilis]

This was readily capable of being seen by those who were willing to open their eyes, Kev (is it Kevin?).

Live for you. That's all there is to it. If you, someday, means two people aiming for the same things in life, go with it. If not, go with it. Just live for you.

 

[HighIntensity]

the reason for this thread was, if you have been reading my posts lately I have been seeing this girl. First really cool female to come into my life since my ex. For a year plus I had walked around angry and void of true happiness. And like the wind she sweept into my life and has put the bounce back into my step.

But I am scared, scared to lose that feeling again. Scared that the only time I am happy is in love.

 

[HS Lifter]

Wow.

Totally unexpected post.

Good luck.

 

[Citruscide]

I hear you bro... we walk a similar path... both now and then.

Never thought you were an asshole brotha... talked to you offline many a time.

C-ditty

 

[Fonz]

But I am scared, scared to lose that feeling again. Scared that the only time I am happy is in love.

Thats because every time you fall in love its different.

Thats why you're happy.

We all seek companionship. Some more so than others. I'd guess you're in the right-hand side of the spectrum. You need companionship to be happy.

This is not a bad thing. Its just part of your character.

Problem is(IMO), you think it makes you vulnerable.

It doesn't.

Its what makes you, YOU.

Fonz