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[mightyT44]

If the test levels are preoccuping you enough so that every post seems to be about them- it will only ease your mind to get the current levels figured out exactly- not a waste of $.
OK, now to really put this into perspective about how the long term solution might be more important than your short term fix (b/c that’s what it is). You said you have no sperm in your ejaculate…HOLY HELL BRO, did you forget what you need sperm for???? Instead of worrying about getting “fat” and not being able to bench 1000kg in 1 week how about you fix your REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM- one more time, and say it with me: r-e-p-r-o-d-u-c-t-i-v-e
Sorry if I have offended or totally crossed the line, I do know exactly what the mentality of an eating disorder is like but...you most certainly have drive and heart so best of luck w/ your diet and training- you deserve it

 

[JKurz1]

If the test levels are preoccuping you enough so that every post seems to be about them- it will only ease your mind to get the current levels figured out exactly- not a waste of $.
OK, now to really put this into perspective about how the long term solution might be more important than your short term fix (b/c that’s what it is). You said you have no sperm in your ejaculate…HOLY HELL BRO, did you forget what you need sperm for???? Instead of worrying about getting “fat” and not being able to bench 1000kg in 1 week how about you fix your REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM- one more time, and say it with me: r-e-p-r-o-d-u-c-t-i-v-e
Sorry if I have offended or totally crossed the line, I do know exactly what the mentality of an eating disorder is like but...you most certainly have drive and heart so best of luck w/ your diet and training- you deserve it

once my diet and weight gain are up to snuff....I think my sperm production will come back....it's all due to my overtraining, which I cut down by the day...used to be 2hrs, 2x a day....turning into 40 mins max, 2x a day...and next week will prob. be 1hr max in the pm only...cardio once a week compared to 7!

 

[JKurz1]

So, what's up for lunch?

 

[BiggT]

So, what's up for lunch?

2 cans of Tuna w/mayo.....I made two sandwiches with whole wheat bread (4 slices)...and lettuce, tomato, and lots of bacon.....and baked Lays and a quart of milk.

 

[blut wump]

I had 8oz (ish) chicken breast, 2 eggs, 4 serving spoons of rice, black pepper, a doorstep of last night's honey bread with butter and an Imperial pint of milk.

 

[alex2678]

Classic Triple w Cheese, Baked Potato, 2 tall glasses of milk taken from the company refrigerator. (To be used ONLY in coffee) Fuck'em.

 

[JKurz1]

I had 8oz (ish) chicken breast, 2 eggs, 4 serving spoons of rice, black pepper, a doorstep of last night's honey bread with butter and an Imperial pint of milk.

cutting?

 

[blut wump]

You know, no insult intended but I feel saddened every time I see egg whites mentioned. I'll happily guzzle down a six-egg omelette and a tin of beans with a pint of milk and a quarter of a loaf of bread. Every time I see egg whites mentioned, my first thought is "what about the yolks?"

 

[BiggT]

I know, I feel sorry for the yolks....the poor little fellows get discarded down the drain by so many people......I try to make up for that by eating my fair share of them.

 

[JKurz1]

Why do you think that is? I mean seriously...I may have an eating disorder which I am slowly beating btw, but I do not and have NEVER had a fear of fats....period. It's carbs that concern me.....I could snack on nuts all day....hell, prebed, i mean on my pillow laying down...I am eating 3-4 handfulls of almonds....cottage cheese, etc.....never look at fat grams.......

o a side note.....what pct protocol do you reccomend? I need to mae sure this is perfect cause I pray I start up again and everything is good to go....no more gear...promise! If my weight increases and my pct hits home and I'm tested (even in the middle of the park) I will never touch em again...then I can just maintain and go with the flow! SPeaking of flow, I know this will also help my sperm volume.....thats purely from anorexia~!