I need major help with my eating disorder

[freeze2000]

Throughout high school I was like a God to most people. I was very talented, played football, took care of my body, and a lot of people looked up to me. It all started slipping slowly away after I graduated, i starting binging. It starting little, and now it has gotten out of hand. Im so scared to go out because everytime somebody sees me 50 pounds heavier then I used to be, and I am not fat peoples opinions of me gone downhill and they feel "let down" which makes me feel even worse! I don't know if any of you guys can relate, but I need help major. I diet for 2 weeks very good, then binge. I'm getting nowhere except to problems.


What should I do for this? I am seeing a counselor and got some meds, but I think its more psychological.

Cliffs:

-Friends used to look up to me, and when they see me they are dissapointed because everything I used to believe in (exercising, diet, happiness) has all gone downhill.
-I stay home a lot now because im scared to go out.
-I binge and feel very guility, suicidal thoughts even.
-I need help.

 

[billfred]

Throughout high school I was like a God to most people. I was very talented, played football, took care of my body, and a lot of people looked up to me. It all started slipping slowly away after I graduated, i starting binging. It starting little, and now it has gotten out of hand. Im so scared to go out because everytime somebody sees me 50 pounds heavier then I used to be, and I am not fat peoples opinions of me gone downhill and they feel "let down" which makes me feel even worse! I don't know if any of you guys can relate, but I need help major. I diet for 2 weeks very good, then binge. I'm getting nowhere except to problems.


What should I do for this? I am seeing a counselor and got some meds, but I think its more psychological.

Cliffs:

-Friends used to look up to me, and when they see me they are dissapointed because everything I used to believe in (exercising, diet, happiness) has all gone downhill.
-I stay home a lot now because im scared to go out.
-I binge and feel very guility, suicidal thoughts even.
-I need help.

#1 Quit worrying about what other people think of you and just worry about how you think of yourself.

 

[christopher2100]

+1 ^^^^^^ worry about yourself. Who cares what people think of you back in the day its means nothing.... odds are they are not even thinking of you in anyway that you think. With the attitude of I am a God i bet people are happy to see you struggling, get your shit together and get past the high school days... its every man for himself not what other perceive............

 

[Arabian]

You suffer from low self esteem ... There is nothing wrong with you!!!!!!!!!!!!! you should get some professional help ASAP.. Please seek help if you are having these feelings.. I have lost 3 personal friends to suicide and trust me ... THAT IS THE WEAK WAY OUT,,,,, YOUR PARENTS AND THE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT YOU WILL SUFFER.... seek help

 

[freeze2000]

+1 ^^^^^^ worry about yourself. Who cares what people think of you back in the day its means nothing.... odds are they are not even thinking of you in anyway that you think. With the attitude of I am a God i bet people are happy to see you struggling, get your shit together and get past the high school days... its every man for himself not what other perceive............

I completely agree, but i just cant! I dont know if you guys feel it too, but when I see somebody that used to idolize me for who I was in high school, they see me now how my life has fucked up just makes me feel terrible. I was a very likeable guy, and i'm sure not a lot of people hated me. I am not bragging in any case, but I was a very positive guy.

I really never had the attitude I am god, it was more of I can accomplish anything and fuck anyone in my path. The best was of all the people saying I couldn't do it and I accomplished it. But now those accomplishments are nothing except sadness.

 

[heavy_duty]

get away from this forum asap.
get professional help, find a good therapist keep looking the first one is not always the best one.

 

[billfred]

I completely agree, but i just cant! I dont know if you guys feel it too, but when I see somebody that used to idolize me for who I was in high school, they see me now how my life has fucked up just makes me feel terrible. I was a very likeable guy, and i'm sure not a lot of people hated me. I am not bragging in any case, but I was a very positive guy.

I really never had the attitude I am god, it was more of I can accomplish anything and fuck anyone in my path. The best was of all the people saying I couldn't do it and I accomplished it. But now those accomplishments are nothing except sadness.

High School football is over dude - if you don't move on past that, you will be in the same place 20 yrs from now. You are too young to become a has been. You have to move on.

 

[Tatyana]

How old are you hun?

You sound like you are still quite young, and seriously, your life is just beginning.

Just think, it may be a blessing that you get to sort this out now rather than later in life.

You had a great time in high school, great. That is the past now, and the past is the past.

Time to look forward.

I would seek out some professional help as well. Counselling is great, and also, one other bit of brain candy I got from my coach

FAT IS FIXABLE

 

[nefertiti]

Definitely address this sooner rather than later. Compulsive overeating is a disorder no less debilitating than anorexia or bulimia. I'm not going to be an internet shrink and diagnose you as a COE, but seeing a therapist in this area might prevent you from going down that road.

 

[needtogetarmy]

No matter how bad you think life is, it is worth living. I've been there.

Seek help. Get out of the house. Think positive thoughts. I recommend heading to a gym and start doing things that will change your lifestyle.