I just had the worst nightmare of my life...

[biteme]

All tonight I dreamed about every major mistake I've ever made in my life.

Every dumb argument with my ex-hubbie whom I love dearly that lead to our divorce.

The looks of pain on my mom's face when she was dying of cancer (in my dream voices told me should would have been better at the hospital instead of fulfilling her wishes to die at home).

Cases that I could have handled better.

Which law school I chose.

Boyfriends I shouldn't have wasted my time with.

I think I've had one that can top that one. It happened 14 years ago and I can remember it like yesterday. The demon came and paid me a visit. I stood up to him and he left me alone.

Going to Florida with the idiot.

ETC.


It was terrible. Remember the scene in the exorcist where the demon was torturing the priest by pretending to be his dead mother and saying "Demi, why did you do this to me? Why did you let me die?" IT WAS THAT BAD.

I think I've had one that can top that one. It happened 14 years ago and I can remember it like yesterday. The demon came and paid me a visit. I stood up to him and he left me alone

 

[heatherrae]

You couldn't have possibly slept that long.

it did take all night, it seemed.

 

[the_clockwork]

sounds like a coma

 

[heatherrae]

it's the pregnany, HR. that's the only time i've dreampt vividly and horribly.

I used to have really terrible nightmares, night terrors, etc. when I was a kid, to the point that I would try to stay awake for days.

Finally, a friend of my father's ex-wife. (Stepmother number one. my dad has been married 4 times) took me into her house and did this little ritual thing and said "You will not have any more nightmares." I don't know if it was the ritual or just the strong power of suggestion, but I didn't have another nightmare until I was well into my twenties. Still, they are never as bad as when I was a kid. Weird, huh?

Oh yeah, I have no doubts that it is the pregnancy. This dream was what I guess I will label "the remorse dream." lol. The most powerful feelings of loss and remorse all welled up. ugh.

 

[the_clockwork]

Lucid dreaming happens in real time, all other dreams don't last long

 

[heatherrae]

I think I've had one that can top that one. It happened 14 years ago and I can remember it like yesterday. The demon came and paid me a visit. I stood up to him and he left me alone

there was no demon in my dream, just a cataloguing of mistakes I've made.

Demon dreams suck.

 

[the_clockwork]

dreaming of demons symbolizes you being the odd man out, being picked on or tortured!

 

[bigmann245]

thats like a near death experience

 

[heatherrae]

thats like a near death experience

It was like that. It was like my life being played out on a movie screen, but only mistakes and with a harsh critic telling me all I've done wrong in life.

 

[bigmann245]

It was like that. It was like my life being played out on a movie screen, but only mistakes and with a harsh critic telling me all I've done wrong in life.

keep looking forward. pretty soon you will have a little life in your hands and all that in the past wont matter. everything you do from now on will be for your child. its amazing how once you have a kid your priorities change and you don't care about what you have and get but more about what you can give to your child.