I have no reason to live....I am contemplating my departure...

[Nobledude]

In case anyone is wondering why the thread is open, it's because we're not about to cut off someone's lifeline.

You want to express sympathy, or try a little "tough love," that's all good. One ground rule, though. This is not a thread to call bullshit. We're going to take it at face value -- one of our own is going through a rough patch and all that matters is getting him out the other side of it.

Life has a way of not turning out the way you expected, and it ain't over 'til it's over.

Tx for your understanding...

As I said it before this is not a suicidal threat but a desperate cry for help.

I am not a saint either...

I am badly hurting and venting my tribulations I am going thru in here takes some load off my chest. I wish I would have never been in this situation. I would have never thought that this would have happened to me.

Maybe karma is bitting me in the ass...

Yesterday when she found on the computer some suicidal wesbites, she aked me if I want to kill myself..I told her that , I dont know.

She said that I should think of our daughter regardless...Also, she said that she knows that she cant stop me. Honestly, I was expecting more sympathy from her....

In her family , her dad hanged himself and her youngest brother committed suicide overdosing on sleeping pills...His GF left him for another guy and he was devastated!

I wish I could stop having feeling for her...I wouldnt feel so shitty anymore if I woudl stop loving her and wanting her body.

My psychologist said that I should change my thinking..easy said, but how do I do that?

I am here to use all the help I can use.....I am gonna see a priest in a few days too...

 

[silverstar1025]

Tx for your understanding...

As I said it before this is not a suicidal threat but a desperate cry for help.

I am not a saint either...

I am badly hurting and venting my tribulations I am going thru in here takes some load off my chest. I wish I would have never been in this situation. I would have never thought that this would have happened to me.

Maybe karma is bitting me in the ass...

Yesterday when she found on the computer some suicidal wesbites, she aked me if I want to kill myself..I told her that , I dont know.

She said that I should think of our daughter regardless...Also, she said that she knows that she cant stop me. Honestly, I was expecting more sympathy from her....

In her family , her dad hanged himself and her youngest brother committed suicide overdosing on sleeping pills...His GF left him for another guy and he was devastated!

I wish I could stop having feeling for her...I wouldnt feel so shitty anymore if I woudl stop loving her and wanting her body.

My psychologist said that I should change my thinking..easy said, but how do I do that?

I am here to use all the help I can use.....I am gonna see a priest in a few days too...

Has your doctor put you on anti depressants? It might help you since you seem so deeply depressed over this and having such thoughts.

 

[wootoom]

Man phone me...Anti depressants work well....They got me through the tough times....Call me...Please i would love to talk bro..Pm me

 

[silverstar1025]

Man phone me...Anti depressants work well....They got me through the tough times....Call me...Please i would love to talk bro..Pm me

If anyone call help talk some sense into him right now and really understand him it's probably you.

Noble I would definitely talk to Woot I bet it would help you a lot having someone to talk to that is going through some similiar stuff.

 

[wootoom]

Please bro......people have told me what to do and i listened....Time heals man..Im still messed up but not as bad

 

[Nobledude]

I have an email spy on my computer and I can track what she is doing on the computer. I want to know what exactly is in her head.

She sent him 2 emails saying how happy she was to talk to him on teh phone and how much she misses him..

I also have a calling card that I use to call Europe and I can keep track of history conversation.

She called him a few days ago and talked to him 16 minutes. I told her a while ago that I can see who is she talking too. This shit hurts a lot...

That dude is in ROmania married but his wife went to Italy three weeks after they married and they saw each other twice since....She told my fiancee that he will divorce her.

I asked her if that dude wants to come to US...She said that he doesnt wanna come here...

She can go to Romania but in order to take our baby with her I have to sign an affidavit....I wont do that, thus baby stays in US...

 

[gotmilk]

Find Romanian chick number 2.......

 

[silverstar1025]

She can go to Romania but in order to take our baby with her I have to sign an affidavit....I wont do that, thus baby stays in US...

Don't kill yourself and she will never be able to move your baby like that. If you are gone she can do what she wants.

 

[wootoom]

Fuck i hated being at this stage.....man it gets easier man....its like a long stage process..im at the tail end....do what you have to do to get through it......whatever makes you happy...listen to music man....music helps...not sad music though...techno/trance was an anti-depressants to me

 

[redsamurai]

She can go to Romania but in order to take our baby with her I have to sign an affidavit....I wont do that, thus baby stays in US...

yep, send her packing.

You have two choices here bro.......take the kid and send her packing, or give her the kid and go off on your own, cause it seems like you got some inner stuff to work out that's totally irrelevant to your daughter or fiancee. You seem intent on keeping the kid.......so you have to send the woman away. Enact proceedings to take sole custody.......and do it NOW. Don't fuckin wait while she keeps sending "I love you's" to some married tool in Romania. You have plenty of evidence of what she's been doing......so you can show that in court. I'm not saying to cut her off from her child........but this limbo shit is unbeleivable. It's the worst possible situation that I can think of. You're just hanging around waiting for her to jet. You have to get the fuck away from her at all costs. If that house is yours, she's gone. I'm sorry, that may sound cruel, but so be it.

How old is your daughter?