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Hey guys,
Let me start off by saying this might not be a popular thread. Mods, you can move this if you think it belongs better elsewhere if there even ends up being any questions.
I'm in my thirties, I'm an ex-big boy. I've competed. I was nowhere near not as big as some of the big cats here, but on the other hand, I was bigger than a lot of people here - hey its all relative depending on the level you get to right?
I have no interest in revealing personal information about myself, and this is a new username, nothing like the one I would use everywhere in my past lifetime - though some of you may know me from other boards years ago - MD, uk muscle, anabolic-authority, once in a while t-nation and a few other randoms, even bb.com (forever ago). It's been a handful of years since I've been on a forums - actually, maybe no one would remember me from any forums...I wasn't primarily on elite, but I always liked the forums, and the ones I really used to cruise are either dormant or closed up shop these days. Either way, I figure theres a good amount of traffic here.
Today I'm a critical care nurse with a good deal of experience in my field (since I stopped lifting, or at least lifting so much). I work in a cardiac unit with post operative open heart surgery in once of the 'big houses' of the western hemisphere - we do everything there is to do with the best medical technology. I'm in grad school for my next move up the ladder, and I've also taken enough chemistry to only need one more class for a masters in biochemistry due to both my interest and my requirements for my particular graduate program route of choice. I completely confident saying I know what I'm talking about, instead of spitting back what I read on some forum/site, and if I [somehow] don't know, I'll get you the answer to your question through resources I have access to.
I look back on my years of lifting and bro talk and forums, and I marvel at the lack of real knowledge out there - though I am NOT discounting the cumulative centuries of experiential knowledge; there is value to some of that.
Look, I know sometimes it would have been nice to have a real, trained, medical profession to talk to who has personal knowledge about the field and isn't an idiot with no idea about this stuff. I also remember the last thing I wanted to do was have a sit down with my doc or any other medical professional. I'm a nurse. I care about your health, I will help you make the best of it for where ever you are in your walk with things, and I've have been there.
Ex-Stats (and no, I don't do e-stats!): 5'9 255lbs at my absolute biggest when I couldn't tie my friggen shoes, and was out of breath from running up a flight of stairs. sets of 375 for on flat (read: working sets with 425 with a extra sprinkle of tren), 595 squat, 635 deads, and I never liked military press, so just the biggest dumbells the gym had for shoulders. Sure, theres bigger guys out there, but looking back now as a normal 'civilian', trust me when I say holy shit is that big. I used for something like 4-6 years maybe more, when I started way back with superdrol/pplex bullshit etc. I'm sure I did some damage. Honestly I don't remember at this point how long or what doses I used exactly, but with the starts and stops and then eventual just hit the gas and stop counting really closely and cruising, it was probably closer to 6. I've run 2.5 plus grams of assorted shit, I've cycled, I've PCT'd, and I've cruised on 500mg for months and months, ok maybe years is a better fit if I'm really honest with it, but I'm not really here to reminisce and play 'name that compound'. Why did I use? We all have our reasons maybe sports, board room domination, girls, boredom, setting goals, because of depression or to feel fantastic, job performance, or just being part of the social environment and community; whatever it is, I don't care, I had my own, I've heard a few of em (mostly from people online), and this isn't about that.
Current Stats: Well...I do a lot of running, have a precor elliptical at home and hit 60-90 minutes 4-5 times a week, more if I can. At the gym I work out like a pussy doing upper body and lower body splits where I just kinda hit everything when I get the time. Some weeks, I don't even make it to the gym. What I lift is laughable to me, probably because I remember grinding out deadlifts and having people stare at me like 'what is that thing' - then again I was kinda biggest before everybody and their dad were 225+ at the commercial gyms. I'm married to my best friend (ex-personal trainer turned nurse, something like myself), no kids, I work a shit ton in crazy acuity, I love my job and I'm doing what I can to stay healthy myself these days, I do a little bit of traveling to sunny places, and I like to grab a good dinner out and flop down to watch netflix with my babe and my dog. If I'm feeling tired from 4 or 5 back to back shifts 12.5hr (13.5-14 with commute) it'll be a deep dish pizza ordered for delivery and I might even use the old lady Homedics aqua foot massage unit I got as a qausi-gag gift last year for christmas as I turn on my roku and sit there in my pajamas, maybe Ill use the elliptical next to the couch for an hour but depends on the energy. I look like a completely normal dude, I'm probably about 185 - dont weight myself monthly anymore, and I get sore after really hitting a good hour at the gym. Shit, I remember 2+ hour sessions with buddies not even slowing down and popping right out of bed the next day, some days I miss that terribly, but I love what I do, and my career, my education, and my wife are all consuming these days and whats important to me today is that I'm happy almost all the time.
I'm here for any serious health questions you guys have, if you have them. Absolutely NO judgement, NO unsolicited advice, NO mis/disinformation. This community is right up there with extreme poverty in terms of how underserved it is, and I guess, in the lifetime I'm living now, I feel like connecting or giving back to the past lifetime if anyone even cares about it.
Take care,
Ex
Let me start off by saying this might not be a popular thread. Mods, you can move this if you think it belongs better elsewhere if there even ends up being any questions.
I'm in my thirties, I'm an ex-big boy. I've competed. I was nowhere near not as big as some of the big cats here, but on the other hand, I was bigger than a lot of people here - hey its all relative depending on the level you get to right?
I have no interest in revealing personal information about myself, and this is a new username, nothing like the one I would use everywhere in my past lifetime - though some of you may know me from other boards years ago - MD, uk muscle, anabolic-authority, once in a while t-nation and a few other randoms, even bb.com (forever ago). It's been a handful of years since I've been on a forums - actually, maybe no one would remember me from any forums...I wasn't primarily on elite, but I always liked the forums, and the ones I really used to cruise are either dormant or closed up shop these days. Either way, I figure theres a good amount of traffic here.
Today I'm a critical care nurse with a good deal of experience in my field (since I stopped lifting, or at least lifting so much). I work in a cardiac unit with post operative open heart surgery in once of the 'big houses' of the western hemisphere - we do everything there is to do with the best medical technology. I'm in grad school for my next move up the ladder, and I've also taken enough chemistry to only need one more class for a masters in biochemistry due to both my interest and my requirements for my particular graduate program route of choice. I completely confident saying I know what I'm talking about, instead of spitting back what I read on some forum/site, and if I [somehow] don't know, I'll get you the answer to your question through resources I have access to.
I look back on my years of lifting and bro talk and forums, and I marvel at the lack of real knowledge out there - though I am NOT discounting the cumulative centuries of experiential knowledge; there is value to some of that.
Look, I know sometimes it would have been nice to have a real, trained, medical profession to talk to who has personal knowledge about the field and isn't an idiot with no idea about this stuff. I also remember the last thing I wanted to do was have a sit down with my doc or any other medical professional. I'm a nurse. I care about your health, I will help you make the best of it for where ever you are in your walk with things, and I've have been there.
Ex-Stats (and no, I don't do e-stats!): 5'9 255lbs at my absolute biggest when I couldn't tie my friggen shoes, and was out of breath from running up a flight of stairs. sets of 375 for on flat (read: working sets with 425 with a extra sprinkle of tren), 595 squat, 635 deads, and I never liked military press, so just the biggest dumbells the gym had for shoulders. Sure, theres bigger guys out there, but looking back now as a normal 'civilian', trust me when I say holy shit is that big. I used for something like 4-6 years maybe more, when I started way back with superdrol/pplex bullshit etc. I'm sure I did some damage. Honestly I don't remember at this point how long or what doses I used exactly, but with the starts and stops and then eventual just hit the gas and stop counting really closely and cruising, it was probably closer to 6. I've run 2.5 plus grams of assorted shit, I've cycled, I've PCT'd, and I've cruised on 500mg for months and months, ok maybe years is a better fit if I'm really honest with it, but I'm not really here to reminisce and play 'name that compound'. Why did I use? We all have our reasons maybe sports, board room domination, girls, boredom, setting goals, because of depression or to feel fantastic, job performance, or just being part of the social environment and community; whatever it is, I don't care, I had my own, I've heard a few of em (mostly from people online), and this isn't about that.
Current Stats: Well...I do a lot of running, have a precor elliptical at home and hit 60-90 minutes 4-5 times a week, more if I can. At the gym I work out like a pussy doing upper body and lower body splits where I just kinda hit everything when I get the time. Some weeks, I don't even make it to the gym. What I lift is laughable to me, probably because I remember grinding out deadlifts and having people stare at me like 'what is that thing' - then again I was kinda biggest before everybody and their dad were 225+ at the commercial gyms. I'm married to my best friend (ex-personal trainer turned nurse, something like myself), no kids, I work a shit ton in crazy acuity, I love my job and I'm doing what I can to stay healthy myself these days, I do a little bit of traveling to sunny places, and I like to grab a good dinner out and flop down to watch netflix with my babe and my dog. If I'm feeling tired from 4 or 5 back to back shifts 12.5hr (13.5-14 with commute) it'll be a deep dish pizza ordered for delivery and I might even use the old lady Homedics aqua foot massage unit I got as a qausi-gag gift last year for christmas as I turn on my roku and sit there in my pajamas, maybe Ill use the elliptical next to the couch for an hour but depends on the energy. I look like a completely normal dude, I'm probably about 185 - dont weight myself monthly anymore, and I get sore after really hitting a good hour at the gym. Shit, I remember 2+ hour sessions with buddies not even slowing down and popping right out of bed the next day, some days I miss that terribly, but I love what I do, and my career, my education, and my wife are all consuming these days and whats important to me today is that I'm happy almost all the time.
I'm here for any serious health questions you guys have, if you have them. Absolutely NO judgement, NO unsolicited advice, NO mis/disinformation. This community is right up there with extreme poverty in terms of how underserved it is, and I guess, in the lifetime I'm living now, I feel like connecting or giving back to the past lifetime if anyone even cares about it.
Take care,
Ex
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