mini_mouse
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When i diet and fail, I can become really depressed over the next few days and eat more food because of the depression. I have become suicidally depressed over eating mistakes before. Sounds strange maybe, but thats how much i care about all of it.
So i was wondering if I should just persevere to get lean or if I should weight until the eating disorder is under control and then try it. Persevering now, I thought might take my mind off it once I reach my goal. It would also make me the happiest person in the world. It would make my life to be at 7% body fat. I would be so happy and confident that I people wouldnt know what hit me.
p60, you know, nothing is worth getting this depressed over ... not even achieving 7% bodyfat . The thing is, until you lay your eating disorder to rest, your cutting achievements will always ring hollow for you: they'll never be "good enough". And that's because your eating disorder isn't simply about wanting to be a certain weight or achieving a certain amount of lean mass, it's also about how (un)worthy you feel as a person and how out of control you're feeling in the grand scheme of things. I think you need to re-frame your focus before you channel your energies into cutting. Instead of cramming all your hopes into your weight/bf goals, take some time out to boost your self-esteem in other areas of your life. Because, unless you do, your eating disorder and associated 'all-or-nothing' thinking will continue to be the fire that fuels your cutting schedule and it will undermine all the positives that could ever come from achieving your goals.