Thank you and so shall it be for you when you get into your own head and realize that this isnt a poor reflection on YOU.
My ex STILL screams at my kids, "Your mother, that fucking whore cunt who destroyed this family...." Yea ok... I MADE him beat me up.
Men like this are broken beyond repair. Prosecute to the fullest extent of the law and NEVER back down!!! I foolishly dropped a Final Order of Protection back in the day on the advice of MY OWN ATTORNEY!!! He said, that in order to settle the divorce I should drop it as "a sign of good faith"... me and my kids were fucked from that moment on. I will live with regret of that moment for the rest of my natural life....
Get yourself together dear. Get yourself together and fix your head and your heart. Seek out counseling and create yourself a wonderfull world filled with happiness and good things. When you fix yourself you will be amazed at what wonderful peeps will *magically* appear right before your eyes.