When my ex and I first split a calm came over the house and we could ALL sleep. But then again my children began to climb in bed with me. There were nights when they all ended up with me and I would actually leave my bed to go sleep in theirs because there was simply not enough room! LOL
Then when I began to sleep with other men I got this godawfull feeling of suffocating. After sex I couldnt WAIT to get out of the bed. If I had a deep affection for him, I could sleep calmly for a bit but it did not last.
Finally when I got to the point where I let a man get close to me emotionally and wanted to SLEEP with him more than just have sex it was very difficult to be alone in a bed.
I actually had to talk to my children about someday when mami gets married again I would no longer be sleeping with them, was that ok with them? (The oldest two and I no longer sleep together as we are physically to big to be in the small beds we have.) They were actually VERY cool about it because they want so much for us to have a "real family" again, one that is happy.
Whenever we would visit with my exbf I would ALWAYS sleep in the bed with my children. Never any sexual contact between he and I in front of my children. This will hold true when my children meet my current beau. I will not sleep in the same bed with a man under the same roof as my children unless I am legally married to that man. I dont judge others. This is just what works for me.
I haven't had a "my bed" for many years. And actually look forward to the day when I can have an "our bed" again.
Regardless I can not sleep soundly because of nightmares that have plagued me since I was young. This will never go away. If that isn't what makes sleep elude me, I am often times ill during the night making sleep very difficult. But on the occasions when my mind is not plagued and my body cooperates I sleep veeeeeeeery soundly cuddling with the man I trust most.