idk bro, a lot has changed since i was with her
1) she (and me) dont live with her fuckin mom anymore
2) we have a baby now, so theres something more important than us
3) Marriage is out of the question. Maybe in 10 years but fuck that, she cheated on me while we were engaged, theres no way i trust her right now and she knows that.
4) she wants a family, so do I, but I wouldnt mind leavin her ass and getting custody either. I still dont trust her. I dont tell her I love her yet (I was when we were together). She does not want me to leave and have 50/50 custody. She is not even breastfeeding that much anymore because he doesnt latch on too well and I guess she doesnt like to pump every day.
Basically if we had never had a kid together, there no fuckin way I would give her another chance. But now that i know it is mine, and she isnt living with her mom anymore, I feel like I can give our "Family" another chance. Eventually her, but right now I like being there as a father. But I am not gonna stay with her if she starts acting like she did, or if she does some crazy shit like fuck 4 guys at once.
To her credit she is acting a lot different. Loving, caring, she even told her mom and step dad that theres gonna be no negative bullshit in front of our kid. Im also gonna have a talk with her family and tell them how it is, in a respectful way. They all fucked me over. I could give a fuck about all of them. I honestly dont care if I was with her or not, but I am willing to make it work because I do like her, I did love her. She did have good qualities that I am FINALLY SEEING consistently. We will see if she keeps it up or if it dies off and she returns to queen bitch.
I think the good thing in my situation is that no matter what happens I will be happy. But I would prefer to be a family. But I am def keeping my eyes open and I will talk to another girl if I start to maybe sense something. Im not sure if I could be with my baby mama for the rest of my life. Only time will tell that, if I could ever trust her again then MAYBE.