Stero, I get it. Many of us take risks every day with our health that we wouldn't dream of recommending to another person. I agree with the guys above: The smart thing to do here would be to find other things in life that you're passionate about and to let fitness/bodybuilding become a less serious hobby, or throw yourself with your same level of commitment into "clean" bodybuilding. But I can't tell someone else to do that because it would be a huge hypocrisy. So I'm not saying never touch anything again, but I would recommend at least making sure you are crystal clear on what happened here, and can accurately quantify the risk you're taking. It doesn't sound like you have that yet.
Was your cardiomyopathy an underlying preexisting medical condition or was it induced by what you were taking? Is it a dilated cardiomyopathy or is it hypertrophic? I don't know all the ins and outs of how cycling AAS affects the heart in each of these scenarios (I know there has been some written about cardiomyopathies but I'd have to check). Perhaps it makes sense to find out.... It may take your doctors a while to get to the bottom of all of this and it seems prudent to at least wait until they do.
Another thought is, whether or not you call that doc I recommended to you (I know it's expensive) it makes sense to have an MD you can be honest with about whatever you're doing. I would encourage you, if nothing else, to build yourself a good treatment team (primary care, cardiologist, endocrinologist if necessary) to help you have the best chance to stay healthy in the event that you decide to take a risk. You might catch some flak but it's better than the alternative.
Also, for the record, there is some evidence that AAS use can be immunosuppressive. I wouldn't rush to dismiss the idea that the pneumonia could be related. Just an educational tidbit.
Finally, I have enclosed a tribute pic and encourage others to follow suit. The memory of the bygone leg pics is enough. I think we'd rather have your lame posts in CnC for years to come than see your crazy-ass log cabin leg pics

Besides, Plank is only gonna mangina them up anyway.
xo, C