You can be big or you can be lean, but you really can't be both without juice. You can hit a half-way medium though I'd say. It is what it is, man.
It's not as bad for you as everyone says either, especially if you don't use much and stay away from 17aa and some of the harsher drugs. In fact you can juice and get jacked without ever hurting your lifespan or long-term health I'd say. I'm sure you need good genetics and low doses to get away with that completely, but it's there. Just don't add too much bodymass and it shouldn't hurt you too much. Also, I'm not a doctor or god so I could be wrong but that's my educated guess.
The body can take a lot - something tells me you already know this anyways sicn you've discussed after hours clubs - really it's hard to put your body through more than that shit. Now, juice a shitload so you are retaining tons of water, snort or pop uppers all day long every day and eventually a valve will explode since the blood pressure or whatever is too damn much. A lot of the people who die young are like that - not so much the true athletes.
So I would say be honest with yourself about what you want and why you want it. If you want to be a competitive athlete though (not all sports obviously but a lot of em), you had better get used to the idea of gear being around and may honestly find that if you want to compete at the upper levels, you won't have a choice but to do what the competition is (depending on the sport of course).