Wow, just read this whole thread. Bro, your problem is you listen to everybody and at the same time you ignore everybody and you are trapped at the bottom of this dark well with a bottle of lotion.
Make a plan, stick with it, chill out and never do roids again. And please don't have kids either. Things will return to normal and I find it extremely hard to believe 6 weeks of use will give you permanent "deca dick".