alright man.. will do- i can't wait to start lifting again
and i am sorry i have nowhere else to take this fucking anger out so i am going to do it here.
I am coming off a left groin and right hamstring injury in soccer and last game we played the best fucking team in the county. I was benched the first 2 games of the season b4 my injury, then missed 2 games, then got benched another 2 games when i was able to play. Last game we were down 4-0 after the first 5 minutes against the #1 team in the county, and i think #6 in the state, and my coach put me in. We lost 6-0, and after the game i got a fucking standing ovation from the rest of our team for my playing and almost scoring 2 goals from defense. Tonight, we played the #3 team in the county, and our best defender was injured so i thought i had a good shot at starting. Instead, our fucking assistant coach decides not to listen to our head coach's lineup (head coach is away) and puts in a fucking midfielder on right defense, then a fucking kid who was just coming up for 1 game from JV, and then a fucking sophmore who i am 10x better than. And fuck-- end of the game i played 7 minutes of fucking pity minutes and fucking made a slide tackle in the box to prevent a goal that the JV kid fucked up on, made 2 runs and 1 cross that coulda been a goal if our forwards didn't suck so much, and after all this fucking shit in 7 minutes, our coach rambles on about how the bench players need to step up; if this is my head coach, i am fucking leaving but it wasn't and right now i am so fucking pissed it's undescribable. It seems everytime i get a chance to play, i am the mother fucking best player on the field and vs legit fucking teams as well.... and all this just to fucking end summer early for soccer 2adays, be stressed out with shitloads of work and also while i am doing college applications with pointless bullshit practices, and be on a team where the captains think they're tough shit even when they're just fucking shit at soccer. Only thing keeping me going now is the fact our head coach isn't here, and if he was here i have a feeling i would have started. I am giving him a call tomorrow and talking to him, because i can't put up with all this fucking time anymore if i am getting nothing out of it
sorry guys-- no need to read all of it that's my rant