we have a place for you to go and talk. We have good people there, you'll know some of them if not all. I started it several years ago after reading post after post like the one you wrote.
If you would like to, we like to have EF'er who are experiencing troubles of many different areas. Our sobreity depends very much on helping others, so if you will, do it for us.
Go to groups, and hit New Beginnings. Someone will be by shortly...