Re: Treils 2006 Competition Log
POST SHOW ISSUE :
Round 2.....
Only posting this because again I'm not proud of it but I have too
I thought I was mentally prepared for this... Not so much
I can't even make this look better then it is. I see why now you see people's pre logs and them asking for help, and yet after a show you kinda see them disappear from the board... or disappear for a few months.. I know why.
If you want to know it is the food issues and no control.
I thought I had it set out, I thought hey I have a plan I am going to try new recipes.. I'm going to eat and slowly bring carbs back in because obviously we all know that I was on pretty much no carbs.. and adding carbs in to fast is going to make me pack on the weight.
I have no junk at home we established that.... but you know what my work place does!! And they have AWESOME desserts when they are bringing in visitors and trying to impress them... So do you want to know exactly what I ate?!?! I'm just letting you know this is not easy to post!
1 large bagel with 2 cream cheese
1 LARGE brownie
2 chocolate chunk cookies
and a cranberry muffin American size version
I feel satisfied but not full... I don't feel guilty but I know the effects of what this type of eating will do. So why, why did I have to eat this?
I was so deprived for so long that it totally hit the spot...
I am mentally trying to prep myself if faced with the situation again.
SBT is by her phone so if I need someone to call when faced with a food she is there to tell me no. I am also avoiding the wedding reception this saturday that I'm supposed to go too, I am going to work on not stressing about what has been done, sleeping, and relaxing.... So far post show is almost worse then pre show.... Different kind of mental f@cked-up-ness
Now it's like the goal is done.. now what? But I need to really concentrate on not adding a lot of fat on.. so next year it won't be as difficult to get it off. I mean I went from 33% to 10% this past year.. It would be nice to maybe be around 20% and drop.. a lot easier....
I'm still struggling here but I'm trying.
