Sorry to say I have fucked myself, wasted all training sessions and destroyed my mindset.
My natural weight is 240, at 240 I was consistently breaking PR's each week, I was manhandling weight, it was getting ridiculous.
I foolishly dieted down for this comp to 220 in 2 weeks, I dropped 10 a week in hopes of retaining some strength and I fucked myself like you wouldn't believe.
In 2 weeks time, I went from warming the hell up with 315 x 10 to yesterday's bench work where I got 315 x2.
I was going to open with 365 which was a back room warm up for me, and yesterday it crushed me.
I went on a super low carb diet and my energy, my workouts, my life has not been the same.
I wasted all my hardwork and now plan to go to the meet to completely embarass myself. I'm so fucking turned off this shit already its not even funny.
I was prepared to give the best drug free natural effort I could and my body has negatively responded horrifically to low carbs. Halfway through my workout the gym turned black and I turned pale as a ghost, luckily there was a nurse on staff she checked my pressure it was way down, they gave me Gatorade (hmm havent had carbs in a long time).
Just cant diet down and maintain strength without the help of gear. I knew coming in I was at a disadvantage but I was ready to meet that challenge, now I already have the mindset to fail.
I'm still going to compete, I'd rather be a LOSER than a QUITTER. I know where I went wrong and what not to do.
And Parab you told me not to diet down, I mean not with a half hour weigh in with 30 mins. to refuel.
Just breaks my heart, the thought of going to a meet where the mindset of individuals is to get a PR and here I can;t bench my warm up weight.
Sorry for this post, I know I sound like a pissy little bitch, but while everyone kept posting I stood by never posted kept my mouth shut training hard in the wing.
No PR's, no trophy, no bragging right, its all spiritual now.
Moral of the story is there are plenty of disadvantages in Powerlifting for every individual, don;t go out like I did and create more of a disadvantage.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I'll be there for moral support for you guys Parab, Rev, Genarr.
And when I get my anorexic ass back to 240 where I belong, I hope to train with you guys and hope you 3 bury my ass during training for posting this bitch post.
Mike